Today...

I....Stay Calm and Forgive.............

2012-02-04T15:44:00.000+08:00

Me and my friend had made an appointment to meet each other in Times Square by 12 pm today.
Yesterday night she SMSed me to change the time to 1 pm instead as she was exhausted from her work.
She will send me a message once she got into the bus so that I can prepare myself. *she stays very far

I woke up at 8: 45 am in the morning, checking out my mails and browsing the internet.
I started my workout session at 10 am and finished around 11.30 am.
I had my green tea and curry rice for my breakfast together with boiled hot dogs.
I stayed in front of my laptop, reading all the funny quotes in Facebook until 12.15 pm.

Wondering how long I have been Facebook-ing, I stared at the clock, &HIT! I'm going to be late!
I went to bath, then I ransacked my wardrobe, looking for something nice to wear though I already have it in my mind since yesterday.
Mismatching for like 3 attempts and finally found the style that look nice on me. *I ditched my previous idea.
Next, is the hairdo. I tied my hair into a bun but dropped the idea in the end because I looked like a nanny with glasses when I looked at the mirror.
I blackened my eyebrow;
I stared at the mirror wondering whether I should applied BB cream onto my face and.... FINE! Let's do it. .
I wear my ear ring, bracelet and beetle necklace that I brought 2 weeks ago.
I looked at the clock, it's already 1.15 pm and I didn't receive any message from her.
I started to wonder if she overslept? *Impossible..........
Then, my handphone rang, indicating incoming message.
"Sorry, Foong. I overslept. I will get ready now" *what the....==||||
Me: "It's okay, no need to hurry"
I continued to browse through all the funny quotes from Facebook.
At 2pm, I received another message.
"I will be leaving at 3pm. I'm washing my clothes." * she continued her message telling me that, her friend already went to KL with the boyfriend and another friend will be going to KL, but at 4 pm. I felt that she wanted to wait for her friend as well.
Me: "Oh, you want to wait for your friend is it?" * Felt a little hurt.
"No, I will be coming alone at 3 pm"
Because I was a little bit angry that the appointment has to be postponed until 4 pm,
Me: "Are you sure you still want to come to KL because you are going to be late when you reached
home"
"Sure, I will be there at 4.30 pm, I can go home late. A promise is a promise XD"
I was annoyed at the word "promise". I thought of cancelling the appointment.
I told myself to cool down and think. *chill....
"She lives so far, outside from KL"
"It's not that she forgot the meeting. she just overslept because she was exhausted"
"Yet, she still make the attempt to come to KL and meet me"
"So, I should forgive her"
I replied her message,
"ok." * I know, it's a little bit cool. I'm still angry. HAHAHAHA
The old me would have insisted to cancel the appointment, just to REVENGE! * childish....
I would wait for her apologizing to me again and again until I cool down. *Stupid.....
Victory! I have won it! What next? * Extremely foolish!

So, that's why I forgive her. After a very long series of consideration. *lol
I continued my Facebook-ing with the funny quotes until I felt hungry for lunch. *I know, it's a bit late....
Instead of eating rice, I boiled the remaining hot dogs for my lunch. * Save it for better food later =D
I continued Facebook-ing until I felt like blogging the whole incident. XD

The end of Chinese New Year Holiday. T_T

2012-01-29T20:05:00.001+08:00

Before I'm going to sleep, gotta do some reviews for my CNY.

Let's see what I have done. Need to refresh my memory a little bit ;P

1) On Saturday, I went out with Banana to Mid Valley. We gave movie a missed for this time because I need to go to SS2 Orthodontist to collect my retainer and I reached there at noon. So, we had lunch at Dubu-Dubu, a newly opened Korean restaurant. Trust me, the food was awesome and the price is reasonable as well. We spent the day walking around the mall, window shopping for dress and finally found a place to rest our legs and continued chit chatting. We ended the day as usual by buying some groceries in Jaya Jusco.

2) On Sunday, early in the morning, I received lots of CNY greetings from friends.

I helped my dad to clean up the altars or the worship place where we placed our Gods. Washed and cleaned them.

3) Basically, the days onwards I just stayed at home and rot. Watching movies and reading mangas till midnight.

4) I cooked Dukbokki with the sauce I bought from Jaya Jusco. It tasted nice but I don't really like Dukkboki because it's like chewing on cooked flour. Something similar to Tang Yuen.

5) The next day I tried on Korean wanton, consisting of spinach, onion and other vegetables. Not sure the meats were present. Yea, another food that I bought from Jaya Jusco.

6) Sorry, I can't remember on which day I received red packets from my dad and neighbours. Hahahaha. Though our family is having an 'economy crisis' I still received a lump sum from my dad. So, touching!

7) I helped my dad to check on lottery online. Previously we had a small arguments and it was my fault. Because he was interrupted me half way when I was watching movie for his lottery, I got annoyed. Indeed, it was my fault, movie freako. Sorry dad. Found out that he won Rm40 from there. hahaha.

8) Finally got scolded by my dad for watching too much movies and did nothing to improve myself, especially for my current job. Felt guilty but continued to watch movies and read my mangas. Holiday!!!!! Means no work. Hahahahaha. Okay, hopeless.

9) Start to feel dreadful because Monday is coming! Gonna finished my TVB series today. Link of Temptation and I bought a stylus pen for my Galaxy Tab with RM 19.90 using My deal.com.

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“Smooth” Textured Porridge

2012-01-29T11:02:00.001+08:00

Today my dad taught me how to make a smooth and yummylicious porridge. *have been craving for chicken porridge these few days.

Here is the method:
1) Wash and rinse the rice as usual.
2) Do not fill the pot with water yet because here is the trick ;p
3) Soak the rice with a teaspoon of oil (I used sesame oil because it’s the healthiest oil I have in my
    kitchen XD) and sprinkle some salt for taste.
4) Mix them thoroughly and put them aside so that the oil + salt can blend well with the rice.
5) While waiting, you can prepare the ingredients such as, cut gingers into pieces, wash the
    chicken(I'm using drumstick.) and cut them into cubes.
6) Once everything done, you can now pour in the water and the chicken essence (I’m using Hainanese Chicken Mix. This is optional as my parents used to cook some nice chicken porridge without the essence as well. Ajinamoto and salt will do the trick. XD), then mix everything inside and start to cook your porridge.
7) Make sure you stir your porridge occasionally so that it won’t stick to the pot and have a better texture.
8) Enjoy!

                                 Will look something like this. *With the method

                                                                    Without the method. XD

2012-01-28T21:33:00.001+08:00

Recently, my body or more specifically my tummy has undergone some changes. Relax…it’s not that I finally gotten a flat tummy, lol

It just that, I easily feel full despite my normal portion of meal. lol and I got watery stool. Not sure it’s a diarrhea because, I just “output” once a day as usual though I have a little bit of stomach ache. You see, I don’t have a sensitive bowel movement. In fact, my normal output is 2 days once unless I eat A LOT of fibers the day before or taking a fiber tablet which is what I’m doing now. In other words, I seldom got stomach pain and diarrhea except menstrual pain. Even if I got food poisoning like what happened to me few months back. Thanks to Pirated-Kinchi that I bought from Jusco. Despite having diarrhea, I suffered from nauseous and vomit. It’s a bad nightmare for me. I’m just saying that, I really got a weak bowel movement. lol.

I can’t deny that I’m contented with what is happening and wondering how long it’s going to stay.

Anyhow, I’m a little bit worry, I want to know why my body makes this changes?

1) Recently, I have started to wear corset for like 3 weeks. Partly because I want to shape my waist pheweet! and another reason is I want to make

sure that I don’t overeat. Frankly speaking, I started to eat a lot during my puberty and only recently I tried to cut down the portions. I

I won’t stop eating unless I feel that my stomach going to explode and I will eat again when I feel that my tummy got some extra space for

the food. Yes, it is horrible and sickening. Whenever I cut down my portion, for sure I still feel a bit of hunger and sometimes I just give up

because I feel hungry and I hate it.. So, wearing a corset might provide me the solution as I can’t eat TOO MUCH whenever I wear it. So, it’s

like giving my tummy a little bit of training. It really works!. It’s not only shape my waist but also trained my tummy. Maybe this is the reason?

2) I started to eat vitamin B complex and multivitamins.

Due to recent stress and hectic working life, I am fatigue and exhausted easily. Though I have 7-8 hours sleep, surprisingly, I still feel tired and

shoulders are feeling so heavy. After done some research, I need Vitamin B complex. Is it because I’m having excess of Vitamin B complex? I think this

reason is very unlikely because if you consume 1000-3000 mg of vitamin B complex will cause toxicity and the tablets that I’m consuming now is 50 mg.

3) I’m eating Nutri Fibre Blend so that I have output for everyday. Simple and clear. Could it be the reason?

I really don’t know! What I will do now is to continue to observe my body changes and hopefully I don’t have to end up in hospital. lol

2012-01-28T14:42:00.001+08:00

I am avid “movie downloader” from China sites;
Whenever I open the sites, many explicit ads and pop-ups appear.
However, recently they are added with a new feature.
Well, I can’t read Chinese but I guess ‘Bananas” like me wouldn’t have any hard time to figure it out.
Nowadays, lots of Chinese-doll-like girls pictures show up on those sites and they look so much like Korean Ulzzangs but with an additional feature. Erhem…they got bigger busts. HAHAHAHAHA . *Please don’t bash me, I’m not mocking them. I’m telling the truth by the way. Of course, I’m so envy!!! LOL.
Ever since Hallayu wave, most of the Korean culture are being assimilated to almost the rest of the Asian countries and you can even find it in some of the western culture as well. *OMG! Their Kimchi tastes so good, their clothes are so beautiful and I want to go to Korea. LOL!!!
What is my concern is, or what makes me start to post something here despite Chinese New Year hiatus, “Plastic surgery has become more apparent in China!” Okay…okay…I know, this is definitely not a breaking news.
I bet you can’t differentiate who is Korean and who is Chinamen if these girls walk together ya.
Could I just say that Japanese manga is the “ancestors” for all the doll-like girls images nowadays?
Big eyes, Peach-like face. high nose and small-thin lips.
Correct me if I’m wrong, Korean is a kick-start to transform a piece of imaginary work into a reality. I guess we call is an “Evolution”?
Surprisingly, plastic surgery is not so apparent in Japanese culture, I mean compared to Korea and China. *Since Korea and Japan are just next to each other and it seems like Japanese market is the first stop for Hallayu.
If it’s not geographical and exposure factors, is it because of the population?
China is the highly populated country in the world. *I just googled it. hahaha
Maybe that’s the reason.
Let see how Hallayu has affected some of the Asian countries
1) China - Not much to say, the girls look pretty much the same to me except they have bigger busts.
2) Japan – Big-manga-like-eyes are not their main culture, I guess they still maintain their Kawaii-ness.
3) Taiwan – Well-known to have good curvaceous girls and correct me if I’m wrong, I guess they mostly use bulb and layer hairstyle
4) Hong Kong - Leng mo. I think their styles resembles china-dolls rather than mangas.

It may not directly affect them but all these styles and fashions are much apparent after the Hallyu wave., right?

A lesson that cost Rm118

2012-01-15T20:29:00.001+08:00

At first, I was reluctant to post this entry,

I just wanted to forget the whole thing and let it remains within myself only.

You see, it was rather embarrassing to open it up here,

Unfortunately, I failed to keep it for myself.

As I mentioned previously, I might go to Kenanga Wholesale City again today.

Indeed, I was there.

Still very determined to get my favourite blouses before Chinese New Year.

As I can't really remember which floor and which shops they were located.

Literally, I had to roam the whole place again, trying to find my blouses.

The bad thing is, my eyes were exposed with more new fashion line of clothes.

Slowly, my aim to buy my blouses drifted off when I came across with a dress. I had started to grow interest on one-piece dress recently.

Sleeveless Red coloured checkered one-piece dress. Nice~

A perfectly fine dress for Chinese New Year.

It cost Rm169 but after discounted, the price is Rm118.

Unfortunately, the available sizes are only 'S' and 'M'. How tiny the average human size nowadays. Sorry, I'm just talking nonsense.

For me, 'S' is totally out and 'M' is so- so only depending on the cutting.

Because customers are not allowed to try out the attires. ~Not sure why, maybe because the main reason this building is here is for wholesale only.

I can only check on the length and estimate.

Well, in front of the mirror it looked really good. Therefore my mind was set for the dress.

I was about to pay by credit card but the shopkeeper said that, credit card payment is only available for purchase above RM300.

I went to nearby ATM machine to withdraw money, but failed.

Guess what, I went until as far as Times Square to withdraw my money from Alliance ATM. Oh!~

Along the way, I was imagining myself wearing the dress and received lots of compliments from my friends on how beautiful the dress looked on me. Mind already set on what accessories that I can wear to match the dress.

I paid for the dress and went home straight, can't wait to try on it and pose in front of the mirror and continue to daydream.

Well, everything was indeed just a dream.

I CAN'T ZIP THE DRESS! It was too small for me! Initially I thought maybe it was my fats that blocking the way. I hope so~

Nope, the culprit was my bone structure. Darn it!

Well, if it was due to fat, I still got chance. Lose them and wear it, but it's not! No way you can reduce the bone size, except plastic surgery of course. I don't think I will go that far just for the dress. Argh!!

What an idiotic, brainless and stupid decision to buy a dress without trying on it.

Gosh~ this is a fortune lesson. I WILL REMEMBER IT FOREVER!

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Loke Yew Flat ON FIRE!

2012-01-14T20:28:00.000+08:00

I smelled something burned while I was editing my post.
The very first thing that came to my mind was, "Eh, is my laptop burned? or any fuse in my house burned?"
I was sniffing around, trying to locate the source of the smell.
Then, I saw smoke coming out from a building opposite my house. To be precise, I'm staying in a flat.
Honestly, at first I thought someone must be burning rubbish in an open area.
What a FOOL!
One of the unit in that building was on fire! Dark brown smoke was puffing out from each and every of the gaps and holes in that building.
Slowly, I heard children screaming for help then the adults and the most significant one, a young lady, I supposed was screaming for her grandpa. Not really sure what's happening.
More cries joined in calling for help.
Sudden fear swept over me,
Never thought it will be so horrifying when a building is on fire.
Metal gates were banged repeatedly, either they were trapped inside the house or trying to alert the rest of the tenants.
Not long after, fire truck's alarm was heard,
Hang Tuah fire brigade came to the rescue!
I heard whistles,
I heard glasses were smashed,
Alarms booming.
More and more people gather around.
Cries for help was getting more intense.
Smokes dispersed and reached our building.
Not sure what to do,
I turned on all the fans in my house to the max.
I went to the balcony continue watching the horrific scene.
My dad came back.
He put down all the blinds in our house and left a small gap in the balcony.
Anxious on what's happening on the other side,
My dad started to ask me to pack my stuff and leave the house.
I calmed him down and said it was unnecessary unless the fire was madly spreading or it was a volcano eruption.
Soon, I heard the sound of raindrops and I thought it already started to rain.
My dad said no, most probably they turned on the main tank for the building to stop the fire.
Finally, the smokes subsided.
Guess the nightmare finally end.
No more cries,
No more alarms,
Here am I blogging.

2012-01-14T18:42:00.001+08:00

Try out my new top today,

Which I bought from Kenanga Wholesale City 2 weeks ago with the price of Rm25.

Dark ocean blue with flurry lace in front.

I don't think I look that good compared to the model in the picture.

Mainly because it was supposed to be one piece but it becomes blouse once I wear it. Too tall.

I matched it with black colour short pant. Thought of wearing the white one but decided not to because I'm still in the process of trimming my legs. Lol.

I put on my necklace, earrings, and bracelet which I bought for primary-school gathering 2 weeks ago.

Initially, I don't even plan to wear them, reason is, I go out today for a walk-in appointment with my orthodontist.

Being influenced a little bit by my colleague, I had decided to put on my accessories eventually. This is what she told me, "I'm still single, therefore I dress up for myself"

The way she dress herself is very lady-like, with make up and accessories matching her clothes. We always stick together in the office, thus, influenced by her gradually.

I didn't make up except darkened my eyebrows because I'm trying to let my face 'breath since I make up everyday when I go to office. Though I'm just applying BB cream onto my face, nothing more. It already sufficient enough to cause breakouts on my face.

I walked to Petaling street as usual while listening to my favourite songs to take metrobus number 12.

It took me around 45 minutes to an hour to reach ss2. The weather is super hot today, can't wait to get into the clinic ASAP for free air-conditioner. The very first thing I did was went to toilet. It was almost an hour of journey, dey.

Once I'm done, the nurse asked me what was my teeth problem? I told her half of the wire that holding my teeth already came off. So, this is the reason I came so far to SS2 even though my whole body is literary burnt under the sun.

Actually, I was supposed to have an appointment 3 months ago but because I was too lazy to visit the clinic and too busy hanging out with Banana in mid valley, I ignored my appointment.

Since I'm a walk-in patient today, I can't see the doctor immediately. Which means I have to wait. Anyhow, the doctor asked me to have my lunch first because it was going to be a long wait. So, I went to KFC to have Famous Bowl for my lunch and much to my disappointment, it was awful.

I passed by Bata shop and got itchy to buy my formal shoes. It really worn out, okay.

At the same time, I bought a pair of lady sandals so that I don't have to exhaust my formal shoes, which I have been doing it all this while. Since, my feet are rather 'unique' , buying shoes has never been my interest. Guess what, the sandals that I have bought really irritated me. I tripped a few times because of it and the strand on the right sandals came off a few times until I had to make some amendments only then it seemed to hold there. What a disappointment. I will never buy such shoes any more. I was posing in front of a mirror in the shop and realize the next thing I have to do is to Makeover my legs. Yeah...they are long alright but with some hairs and scars from mosquitoes' bites, they are sort an eyesore!

Once I'm done, I went to Public Bank to pay my Unifi bill which has been 3 months outstanding! Darn it! Fortunately I called Unifi call center as it has been months I didn't receive any bill for my unifi. Turned out that they got my wrong email address, therefore, I didn't receive my bill. Anyhow, they should have called when I didn't pay, right? Ugh....

I waited for a couple of minutes in the clinic before my turn, it ain't that long actually.

The very first thing the doctor said was, "yer ....a girl you didn't wash your tupperware properly". Okay, I admit it, the fact is, I just washed it this morning, the very first time after 6 months! Eaww.... Fine! I will wash it again! And make it once a week. Looks like this year I need to do a lot of 'change me'.

After doctor's inspection, she suggested me to make a removable retainer for my lower jaw teeth as there is a small gap between my teeth and it costs 100 bucks. Another 100 bucks gone. Who's fault? Mine!

I went home at 4 pm and before I reached home, I planned to go to Kenanga Wholesale City to buy 2 blouses that I had been longing so much, which caught my eyes 2 weeks ago but didn't buy them that time because I didn't bring enough money. So, I went to Maybank ATM to take some cash. However, with unknown reason, I can't withdraw money. So, I just went straight home, feeling frustrated.

I might go again, tomorrow.

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2012-01-12T20:21:00.001+08:00

Hi, I'm back!

Recently, I have been utilizing my Galaxy tab for reading manga entitled, " Dr. Black Jack".

Because of this, I didn't blog for quite some time even though I got tons to spill out.

I have been a TVB drama freak, which make my eyes glued onto my laptop screen for hours especially during weekends.

After I watched "7 days in life" staring Steven Ma, Sonija Kwok and the rest of main TVB Artists, I started to miss Steven in ancient series with Jordan Chan in Duke of Mount Deer 1998!

In fact, he is my first ever TVB Artist that I fond of before Hallayu. Lol. Because of my strong sudden desire to watch him again in Duke of Mount Deer 1998, I have been "ransacking", "searching high and low" and "researching" for this particular series in internet.

Due to the fact that Malaysian Government has blocked certain online storing sites in internet, searching for this series had been a very painful and tiring experience. Not to mention, Cantonese version is only available for download in China.

Because of this, I have spent on a VPN software called Hidemyass, for the first time in my life, which cost me Rm36, only for 30 days. I have to renew it if I want to use it again.

Literary, it is a software enable the user to hide their original IP address and even got to choose to connect to other server in different countries. Thus, it will allow you to view or access to certain sites that your country has blocked. Of course, connect to the nearest server from your country will not affect much of your internet speed. I guess it is worth it since I still have to pay around Rm 40 to Rm 50 bucks for 45 episodes TVB series.

I have been feeling tired recently despite having 7-8 hours of sleep per day.

It is really different from those tiredness that you can overcome by "recharging" your body for 12 hours after having several sleepless nights burning midnight oils studying for tests and finals. Lol.

I was wondering what happened to my body which caused it to response in this way. Many thoughts came to me. Am I too stress? Maybe. Am I getting old? Lol. Well it was just six months ago I finished my finals for my degree. I don't think, which I hope not the main reason I'm feeling tired. Finally, I have started to think that my body might lack of vitamins. So, it is the time for me to consider taking supplements. Not sure which supplements I should take, I planned to buy a multivitamins. Well, the first thing came to my mind was Amway. Yeah, I'm a registered user, not yet a distributor. Honestly, I'm convinced with their products. It just the price of their products that reminds me for my another alternative, Cosway. Because of this, I went to Times Square after work just to visit Cosway despite I was dying to go home and sleep.

After talking to the shop manager, discussing and comparing both products from Amway and Cosway, I bought a multivitamin spirulina and a vitamin B complex. Just to let you know, Vitamin B complex is a cure for fatigue and tiredness and I bought the spirulina multivitamins just to make it more than Rm 30 so that I can get a voucher.

Anyhow, I want to find out whether my body lacks of vitamins. Result, one month after today. Oh ya, total is Rm49.90 compared to Amway 180 tablets multivitamin which cost Rm107 . Anyway, if the products that I have bought is not useful, I will consider Amway's.

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2012-01-03T19:45:00.001+08:00

As you grow older, your world getting bigger and bigger;

You will learn more,

Sometimes even until the extent you doubt your own belief;

So-called fact and education that you learnt when you were small.

What happened all these while make me wonder what I'm doing are right or wrong;

I don't know;

I chose to do what I think is right and whether the person deserves it or not;

Your life is a jigsaw puzzle once you are born, mis and match till you find the last bit at the end of your lives.

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2012-01-02T16:12:00.001+08:00

Suddenly I feel so lonely;

I'm missing my childhood very much;

I want to have vacation with my family, like the days we used to be;

I want my parents buy me the things that I want ;

I don't want to be adults;

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Run! Run! Run!

2012-01-02T10:56:00.001+08:00

I'm feeling totally wasted recently. Not sure whether it is the correct word to define me at the moment.

Seems like I'm not satisfy with lots of things recently.

1. My face has lots of white heads recently. The same situation happened to me six months ago. It stopped happening once I bought a Murad cleanser. I guess the cleanser no longer working now and it seems to backfire. == My next cleanser would going to be Cetaphil cleanser, specially for dry skin, or chronic dry skin.

2. Dry and lifeless hair. Speaking about dry skin, unfortunately I got dry hair as well. They look so dry and unhealthy and definitely not attractive at all. I bought good shampoo, good conditioner and a good hair serum as well. Too bad, I don't get the effect that I long. Sooner or later I guess I will forget how healthy my hair used to be when I was small.

3. Thick and heavy limbs. Limbs is short and precise word to be used in this statement.

Again, due to my lost-self-discipline a few months ago, I gained weight. Well, I'm in the process of getting rids of all the fats.

4. Family crisis. With my mum current condition, it makes my day even worse. Just last week, she yelled and howl for 5 hours in the middle of the night. Starting from 1 am till 5 am.

Appearance-concerned and feeling unhappy and depressed, all I want to do now is Run! Run! Run! I want my peaceful life back.

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Most Rich People Have Good Face

2011-12-28T21:24:00.001+08:00

Okay, this statement has been sticking to my head for quite some time already, ever since I signed up for Facebook.

Frankly speaking, I am really envy with those good looking people especially if they are females. Basically because I'm a female as well. Lol

I am an average-looking girl and if not because of my height, people may not notice me at all. Yeah, this is one of the reason I love my height, though sometime I don't like it.

I know, some of you must be saying that, ''ugh..another girl who doesn't satisfy with her look"

I know, I should be grateful with who am I. Someone healthy and my appearance is not deformed. Of course I know all this.

You are right, sometimes I am not satisfied with my look, I WANT MORE!

You are right again, all these are due to the social description of what they consider good-looking.

You are right again and again, I'm also part of the world population who are being influenced or affected by such judgmental.

Anyway, my whole post is basically for me to vent out my dissatisfaction.

You know, all these good-looking people have all these good features that I envy the most.

They are slim or almost skinny but not to the extent of scraggly looking walking skeleton.

They have flawless skin.

They are photogenic

And most of them are rich! Okay, I'm not bias with rich people.

Sometimes I can't help but to compare myself with them.

I'm rather muscular and big in size due to my bone structure and my 'fat gene'

I have dry skin with lots of white heads on the side of my face and forehead.

I'm not photogenic and I'm definitely not from a wealthy family.

Huh, all these make me feel pain once in a while.

Maybe if you are rich you can hardly have skin problem because once you do, you will end up seeing dermatologist, buying branded facial and skin care products and frequently do facial.

When your skin is good, you are definitely photogenic. Hello! Lightning and angle work very well for good skin people.

As far as I'm complaining, some maybe my faults as well. I don't think I have a good facial cleansing regimen. Either the products are expensive or I'm just plain lazy.

Struggling to become slim but because I love food very much, it is really a big challenge for me and with the 'fat gene' , it becomes tougher.

In the end, I complained and then I 'slapped' my face back. lol.

How should I end it, hwaitting! To chase my dream.

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2011-12-24T23:00:00.001+08:00

The most enjoyable moment for me when hanging out in a shopping mall is watching movies. Yeah, I am a movie freak. It is obvious, right?

Talk about the cool sound system that blast your ears and the huge wide screen in front of you. It rocks my day.

Just yesterday, I went to KLCC and watched Sherlock Holmes 2 in TGV with Rm 10 only. Reason being, I bought my ticket online and they just charged me Rm 9 + Rm 1 processing fees. A brilliant marketing plan against GSC, eh?

At first I felt a bit awkward standing in front of the screen, holding my coke and popcorn watching ads and trailers alone, while waiting for the seat at 11 am. With no one to talk to and trying my best to ignore those people giggling with their friends. My eyes snuck a peak to the theater entrance occasionally, fretfully couldn't wait to let myself into the hall.

I'm considered the first three people entered into the hall after a pair of teenage couple.

The hall was dark and kind of creepy too without all those ads and trailers booming the whole theater. Slowly, the crowds filled up the seats and I noticed I'm not the only one watching the movie without a companion. Feeling a little bit relieved.

When the movie started, I started to feel 'comfortable' with my situation. Pretty much ignored those sitting around you when your eyes were on the screen. Not long after the movie began, a foursome entered the hall sitting two rows in front of me.

I didn't pay much attention to them at first, not until one of them, a lady I supposed. Laughing hysterically out of sudden. It did sound like a witch laughing when her evil scheme has succeeded. The movie was a bit funny, I meant 'a bit'. However, it was not a totally goofy Mr. bean-like movie that made you laughed like a witch. Not to mention she was laughing at the scenes which all of us except her thought not-that-funny-at-all. All our heads turned to her when she laughed and I heard a Chinese guy sitting in front of me talking to his friend next to him, "what is she laughing?"

She laughed like that for several times and I even started to wonder whether she was a little bit psychotic and maybe her family just wanted her to have fun in cinema or she was a britain after all for being the only one in the hall to understand the joke? If I'm not mistaken, the same guy was mocking at her witch-like laugh. Cowardly, though, as the laugh was not as loud and high pitch as her.

The movie was awesome and it was even better and intense than the first one. A movie that you definitely can't miss. After it ended, I bet all of us were curious about the girl's identity as the first thing we did was to turn our heads to her and get to see her face. Surprisingly, she was an adolescent but definitely not a Britain. Initially, I really thought she was a mid-age woman, judging from the way she laughed.

I hurried my way out of the cinema, partly because I need to go to toilet urgently and another reason was because I didn't want to put myself in a situation where all the people were discussing about the movie with their friends except me. Pathetic, huh?

When I left the cinema, I felt tempted to watch another movie. What made me hesitated was, I was not quite sure which movie I wanted to invest, next. Everyone is talking about ghost protocol and Sherlock Holmes. So, the next should be ghost protocol, right? Anyhow, I dropped the idea because I was hungry and I was lazy to queue up and buy my ticket.

Previously, I planned to eat Korean food. However, with all the long queue of people waiting outside the restaurant, not only one but all the restaurants, made me forget about eating nice food instantly.

Finally, I went to Isetan since I wanted to buy some groceries. They are only white pepper, anchovies powder and Korean paste by the way. I took my lunch there, having a Japanese food which was a bowl of rice with chicken and a cheese sauce that cost me Rm10. Well, it tasted rather insipid and if you compared with Zammai, which is way more better that. Urgh..can't wait to eat at Zammai with Banana again. I finished my meal very fast, maybe because I felt uneasy eating alone.

Then, I went to a clothes shop (sorry, can't remember the name), looking for tops. It is the second shop I like to go in after Giordano in KLCC. Well, they ain't many shops you can visit in KLCC, huh? I didn't buy anything from there as they were so expensive even though they are having sales now. I did lay my eyes on a blouse but I didn't buy it because, with that quality, I can buy in Times Square with a much cheaper price.

My last stop in KLCC was Fitness Concepts. I bought 2 dumbbells weighing 4 LBS each ( not sure how many kilos was that). I had been planning to use dumbbells in my workout recently because I already feel bored with my exercise DVD. Eventually, I ended my solo-day holding a total of 8 LBS weight with me, going back home.

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2011-12-22T20:46:00.001+08:00

Out of my neighbors's generosity, I am able to eat tang Yuen this year. It has been quite some time that I didn't celebrate it with my family especially after my mom is sick. It's okay, there is nothing to be sad about. I don't even remember that today we supposed to eat tang yuen and It's not my favorite festival of the year anyway because I'm too lazy to play with the flour. Just kidding ~.
I recalled that when I was small, my neighbor and I love to add in some ingredients in our tang yuen as the original one was too plain and tasteless. Thus, we added in gula malacca to make it slightly tasty. lol. Kids' taste buds. XD

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2011-12-22T20:31:00.001+08:00

It's time to have my fruits now.

Recently, I have been really careful to eat my fruits after dinner as my dad has been acting overly sensitive, saying that fruits can make you gain weight. Is it?

I did some online research of course but nothing out there saying you will gain weight if you eat a lot of fruits. I do believe that is the amount you eat makes you gain but not the type of food you eat. However, I don't think I will be able to eat that super huge amount of fruits at one time. Lol

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2011-12-22T20:12:00.001+08:00

After having some discussions with my colleague during lunch hour, I have decided to rock my holiday tomorrow by eating Korean cuisine, watch two movies and hang out in Starbucks ALONE. It's not that this is the first time I hang out in shopping mall alone, the fact is, this is going to be my first time watching two movies and eating expensive food ALONE.

Previously I still have Cheese and Banana accompany me. However, I have to go solo for this time. Reason is, Cheese is already in Canada and Banana is busy with her mushroom discovery lol.

I'm kind of excited actually. I wonder how it feels like to watch movie alone and eat alone in a restaurant. Honestly, I do care what people will think of me when I do all these alone. Blah! I'm thinking too much. Who cares? Right?

However, based on my movie research in TGV cinema in KLCC, there are not many good movies available recently. Which means my two movies in one day is basically cancelled. Another thing is, I want to save some good one for me to watch with Banana later on. Just afraid that she will complain lol. I had made my final decision on Sherlock Holmes 2, which I double confirm my selection by watching the trailer in YouTube and reading the comments. Basically, it was a very strong positive response and not to mention the trailer looks fun. Out of sudden, I feel like watching the first one again. The reason I chose TGV cinema in KLCC because I plan to buy my Samkyupsal ingredients in Isetan. Yeah, I'm going to cook it again.

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A very Sad Day to Start My Holiday

2011-12-22T19:53:00.001+08:00

About an hour ago before my day ended at 5.30 pm, my manager requested me to print out the NCL. As I was about to do so, my senior IM me and talked about my NCL. According to her, my faxes are TERRIBLE, definitely not up to the par of the average requirements. I was shocked, of course. Well, as far as I concerned, our faxes are being determined by how many emails that we had sent on that day and not by how many companies that we have pitched.

Later on, when my senior manager looked my NCL, she told me the same thing again and I was nagged by her saying that I put her in a deep sh#t condition. I explained to her of course that I was being told to pitch more than one person in a company. Basically, what she was telling me was almost the same with what my senior said. I guess they both were discussing about me beforehand, which I confirmed when I spotted my manager was IM-ing with her during that period.

I was rather hurt than feeling sad actually. I swear with my name that I never slack off when I was pitching. In fact, my neck hurts a lot because I was on the phone almost all the time.

Argh! Can't they just fathom that during this period almost all the people in the companies especially those big companies are on holidays! No one is there sitting at the place to pick up your calls. What the.......

I guess everyone trying to cover their a$$.

Then, my senior walked to me and sort of asking 'how am I doing?' With her funny facial expression to cool things down, perhaps. Still with the hurt feeling, I don't really say anything much to her.

However, when I think back, I'm lucky to have at least someone still care about me in the office especially in this corporate world.

Haiz.......

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2011-12-22T06:57:00.001+08:00

Urgh~ I overslept today. I was supposed to wake up at 4! Instead, I woke up at 6.42! Hate it! It's not that I didn't set my alarm, I DID! Either I turned it off subconsciously when it rang or I couldn't hear the alarm. Darn it!

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Such an eyesore

2011-12-21T22:04:00.001+08:00

This is the word that Banana and I have been using frequently referring to couples that behaving a little bit too intimate in the public when we were roaming and wondering Mid Valley shopping mall. ~opps

Can't help to say it as we are still S.A.D at the moment and we are turning 23 next year. ~Gosh!

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2011-12-21T21:16:00.001+08:00

Currently, in Facebook all the Utarians are busy discussing about the PTPTN loan interest conversion from 3% to 1%. Some say good and some say bad. Based on some of the articles that I have read, you can opt for 1% interest if you want to pay it for long term or remain 3% if you want to pay lump sum. I guess I will choose the 1% after much consideration and opinions from my coursemaes. I don't think I will regret it unless I won a jackpot out of sudden. Lol.

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2011-12-21T21:10:00.001+08:00

My tummy feels acidic, I guess I accidentally triggered excessive amount of gastric juice secretion when I ate too much of hot and spicy crackers bought by my colleague. Lol..Cari pasal~

During afternoon lunch hour, I had been pestering my friends for a movie this week after I heard that my colleague going to watch Ghost Protocol on this friday, but, to no avail. Okay, my last resort is Banana but not sure whether she will be available or not as she is a very busy researcher nowadays. =<

Should I hang out in MPH and read my Agatha Christie and taking the risk of buying a few more books, with 5 of them still remained untouched in my shelves? Or I should stay at home and read my books and at the same time trying to be a fillial daughter for the week during the family crisis period?

I guess I choose the latter. ~boo.......

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2011-12-21T21:01:00.001+08:00

Went to Isetan and Cold Storage in KLCC with my colleague after work. It was never my plan to go to KLCC initially as I only aimed to go home and sleep early and then do my research later, perhaps?

Suddenly I thought of buying some ingredients to make samkyupsal since I'm craving for it. I bought pork belly, lettuce and onion.

Well, a small accident happened when I was on the way heading to LRT station with my colleague. Nearly 60% of the tube that I was wearing got exposed! Hopefully it was not obvious as I'm wearing with my formal clothes and no one will notice the pinkish thingy underneath it. ~opps, a little bit too explicit here.

I can't wait to cook them when i reached home. My dad started to nag me when I took out the cooking utensils as he thought I'm going to cook noodles again which he assumed to be the main culprit for my weight gain. Little did I know that I still need a few more ingredients such as the Korean chilli paste, garlic and carrot. Anyway, I just ate with what I have and it still tasted good. However, I made up my mind to buy the rest of the ingredients when I got the chance as I really want to eat a real samkyupsal.

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2011-12-16T21:26:00.001+08:00

'I did some shopping in Cosway, Times Square after office hour. Actually I was going to buy the body shaper girdle ( the name that I know only after I looked at the package) since my body in the first place doesn't have good curve and the worse thing is recently my body somehow inflated a little? After my 2 weeks-doomsday.

I did some research before I bought it and what I found out is, it can slim down, trim (of course) and shape your body even when you are sitting down doing nothing. It basically tightened up your body and force it to sweat, something like that. The greatest result of course when you wear it while you exercise. Great! I'm going to try it tomorrow.

Besides the girdle, I bought a shampoo , a conditioner and a serum for dry hair. Yeap, the saddest thing in my life. Dry hair, dry skin.

Speaking about product research, I did find out where I can buy the girdle. I'm comparing it with Amway actually since I'm a registered member for Amway as well besides Cosway. Guess what, the item listed under Amway is super expensive. Around 500 bucks! No doubt their products are good but not that impressive enough to worth such a price. I hastily dropped my consideration for buying the girdle from Amway.

Last month, I bought a shampoo and a conditioner from Amway and the price was Rm 82 for 300 ml per bottle. It was so expensive and yet only little volume. I was about to buy Artistry moisturiser last week when mine almost finished. What shocked the most is the price. Rm 82 for 75 ml only. Oh my God! This is absurd. I quickly dropped the idea. Seriously, with this price, it is definitely not the moment for me to buy it. I'm not trying to bash Amway products, please don't get me wrong. I'm making a comparison between the money I invest and the returns. Return of Investment (ROI).

Maybe because the products don't suit my body, thus the result is not promising enough.

Anyhow, let's see whether these products from Cosway can do wonders.

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Contagion (2011 film) - A highly not recommended.

2011-12-16T20:44:00.001+08:00

Just finished watching this movie 5 minutes ago and thanks to Samsung Galaxy Tab that I can blog about it right away. Otherwise, you will only see this entry for at least one month later, with most of the fun parts being cut off and the remnants are only for the sake of filling up my blog.

Basically, I'm really disappointed with this movie and somehow I'm surprised why it can achieve 7/10 ratings. Yes, I'm comparing it with Outbreak as those who had watched Outbreak are expecting this movie will almost be the same. Honestly, I will not rewatch and I even had deleted the movie right after it ended. Funny part is, now I re-downloading it because I just remember that I'm meeting Banana tomorrow and she might want to watch it. Lol.

The reason I'm not so fancy with this movie is because the story line doesn't fit orderly. Hm...how should I put it? Some of the scenes left you wondering why suddenly it becomes like this. This scene doesn't relate to that scene. It was like there is no head and tail at all. Second, I can't feel the tense moment or the intensity when the movie was in the climax. Anyhow, I couldn't identify which scene is the climax. Maybe because it doesn't involve blood or militaries-doctors-public conflicts. The third reason which I hated the most was the movie ended in some sort of rush way. I was like, huh? This is the end? Just like that?

Till now, I can't accept the fact that this movie got a high rating from the critics. Could it because nowadays all the critics prefer movie with indistinct story line? Something makes you wonder what's going on? Something not making any sense at all.

I'm just glad that Banana and me chose The Thing over Contagion when we in GSC, Mid Valley.

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Sales Team Dinner - Jalan Alor

2011-12-16T00:23:00.001+08:00

After like six months ago in Hard Rock Cafe, we had another dinner-division in Jalan Alor. It is basically a street that full of Chinese hawkers and restaurants serving varieties of Chinese cuisines. It reminded me of Penang, the heaven of food. Little did I know that it just located around Bukit Bintang area and the place did look familiar to me. Reason being, I did pass by the street 3 years ago when I was working in Scotia bank. Lol

It was a dinner for 8 people and we ordered a lot of food such as, Fu Chien Mee Hoon, Kwon Low Mee, oysters, fried rice, fried fish, Kai Lan and lots of grilled chicken wings. All the food are awesome! They are delicious! It costs each of us Rm 25.

Unfortunately one of my colleague couldn't eat most of the food as they are non-halal.

At 8 eight o'clock, we went home by our manager's car where she dropped us off at the nearest lrt station. Along the way, we talked about tomorrow thanksgiving and designing our own division T-shirts. ~sounds fun~

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2011-12-15T01:17:00.001+08:00

Fallen asleep after watching Contagion for like 15minutes. Please don't get me wrong, the movie was fine it just that my eye lids were too heavy and droopy to stay awake for the next few hours. I ended up sleeping on the floor with my dirty outfit until 12.15 am in the midnight. With my saliva dripping to my left cheek and backache due to sleeping on the floor instead of mattress and not to mention with my sticky and stinky body I woke up in a sudden and dreamy states. I did set my alarm at 10 pm but I subconsciously turned it off, I think. Well , it happens all the time.

Realized what was exactly happened, I hastily went to bath. Argh! It was so cold and I was trembling. I make myself a lemon juice and Milo drink, for my midnight research beverages. No choice, got to do my research for tomorow, otherwise I can't survive. Part of me feel relieve that I had fallen asleep just now for like 3 hours. At least I can stay up for another 3 hours before I sleep again. ~hwah~

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2011-12-14T20:29:00.001+08:00

Supposed to start my research now but ended up watching Contagion. It happened because it has been my habit or routine to browse for movies in Qvod download sites during dinner. Unfortunately, the movie is available, now. What else? Watch now ler. Part of me hope that the movie is terrible and I will be skipping quite a number of scenes while watching it.

Hopeless~

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Pre-Thanksgiving Day

2011-12-14T20:15:00.001+08:00

Never thought that I will be celebrating Christmas and exchange gift for the first time.

It's going to happen on Friday, lol.

We were told to pick names from the Santa Clause huge socks in the afternoon to determine who is the lucky person that will receive our gift. I was so eager to know who will I receive the gift from. Everyone is trying hard to keep the secret from each other, though some are still whispering among themselves.lol.

Since it's on this Friday, most of us are rushing to buy gifts. I still hope that we were informed earlier so that we have ample time to choose. Thus, right after working hour my colleague and I went to KLCC. We were allowed to leave 30 minutes earlier today as it was predicted or assumed that the roads will be flooded with rainwater. Anyhow, we had waited for like 30 minutes in the lobby before we took off. Basically no one wanted to be drenched or struck by lightning (my colleague's joke).As I'm a choosey or slow person when buying a gift. I took ages to choose the item that I wanted to buy though the shop was not huge and pretty much not many varieties they are having.

The main problem is, I was undecided. Not sure which one is the best and I can't deny that some personal feelings did involve when I was chosing the gift. I chose it because I like it. Lol . I really have to apologize to my colleague for waiting for me as she ended up getting home late for today.

p/s: Didn'tmanage to take the picture before the item was wrapped as I requested the gift shop to do it for me instead. okay, lazy. Lol

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Indon-mee from Indonesia

2011-12-13T20:29:00.001+08:00

My colleague bought me a few packets of Indon-mee from Indonesia which she claimed they tasted really good when she went back to her hometown last week .

I cooked one of the flavors for my dinner added with vermicelli and.....they tasted really AWESOME! Hahahahah

p/s: notice those labels? They are written in Indonesian language :-)

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Android for Blogspot and Facebook

2011-12-13T20:06:00.001+08:00

Finally, the new androids for Blogspot and Facebook finally available. So far, I'm satisfy with the new one and I install it after I saw my lecturer announced in Facebook that the new version is good. Trust me, previous versions are terrible, make you want to uninstall them right away. Hopefully this won't disappoint me. Androids software are free but sometimes it's hard to find a good one with all those bugs and incompatibilities.

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2011-12-11T19:21:00.001+08:00

All these people are just annoying.
They are so noisy.
I need peace.

2011-12-10T23:45:00.001+08:00

Going to post this before the battery for my tablet pc fully dries out.
I've finally finished another Agatha Christie novel. I guess I used up half of the day lol.
Before I off to bed, I wrapped up my novel, the one I have not read yet. Readied for tomorrow, another investigation of Hercule Poirot.

While wrapping up my novels, it suddenly reminded me of the days when I was 14 years old high schooler. My classmates and I talked about how our textbooks was nicely wrapped, praising each others' good work and sharing techniques on book-wrapping. lol

With this memory, I suddenly recalled the days when I sat in front of my dad, watching him wrapping all my textbooks when I was 8 years old. I remembered vividly, instead of using scissors, he used a blade to cut the wrapping paper. Those were the finest art of book-wrapping in my life. The plastic fit and wrapped around the books perfectly, with no extra space for air to enter.

Caught in embarrassment

2011-12-10T15:07:00.001+08:00

I was blogging at the time, suddenly I received instant messages from Skype. Surprised, it was from a friend whom I didn't get in touch with for quite some time. Well, eversince we have graduated.

The conversation touched about boys and relationship. I always in the habit of instant messaging with my friend using short-forms and symbols. Unfortunately, short-forms are not 'preferable' in my case this time as I have set my keypad to auto-correct. Guess what, some sentences turned out so wrong! The words that I used are not vulgar or explicit kind of way. Not at all. They are just common words that even a kindergarten knows the meaning. It just that, they 'appeared' at a wrong 'time' during the conversation that it sounds a little bit explicit. Lol.

Guess even using proper English can kill you if the timing is incorrect.

2011-12-10T12:35:00.001+08:00

I've just finished 2 out of 8 of Agatha Christie book series that I have bought last week.
The first one is "The Body in the Library".

The storyline is good but I don't like the timeframe. It circulates around the victorian era, I guess. Correct me if I'm wrong. So, basically my imagination ain't perfect enough to portray the plot when I was reading it and I'm not a fan for that era as well. Nevertheles, it was a good novel. Those who enjoy something "back to the future" and a hardcore fan of detective series would definitely love it. Now I only I realize that Agatha creates more than one detective. This novel featuring Miss Marple instead of Hercule Poirot. Sorry, I should have known better Lol.

The second novel that I have read was "Death in the Clouds".

Okay, I like this one better. Yea, it is the timeframe I guess and this time Hercule Poirot featured in the story. lol and the story was awesome. My eyes glued on it once I have started to read a few sentence.

2011-12-09T20:22:00.001+08:00

Supposed to take a 30 minutes-long nap. As I was about to do so, noticed my dad is watching Mr. Vampire 4 movie, which is my favourite Hong Kong vampires movie. What else? I'm joining in the partay~

2011-12-09T19:34:00.001+08:00

It is raining heavily now but not until the extent of water splashing against the window or having raindrops showering your room.

I feel so exhausted today. My head is pounding, eyes feel like burning and body aches with pain. Basically I'm staggering when I walk, having no clue what is happening to my surrounding and I just feel like drop off onto my bed and sleep after dinner.

Given with a responsibility to sell a new program makes me feels excited yet anxious.
Feeling excited because it's something new and can't wait to try it. Feeling anxious because you have to reach a high target this time.

I will definitely do my best to bring them all in, I meant money, then shopping! Hm...wondering what is in my shopping list lol. Seriously can't think of any at the moment. It always happening, when you got the spending power, you don't know what to buy. However, everything seems tempting when you are broke Lol.

2011-12-06T21:01:00.003+08:00

After like 7 years already, I'm still asking myself, ''why is this happening to me?" Why can't I live happily? However, no matter how much I want to say, ''This is so unfair!", I still can't say it loudly. It is not like my childhood is a misery, in fact, it was a happy one. Honestly speaking, even till now, I still can't accept the fact. Every time I look at her, I feel miserable. I want to cry so much. Keep on yelling, WHY? Looking at her sunken face with scraggly look. Getting thinner and thinner everyday, Barely able to walk. Couldn't sleep, Coughing for the whole day. Staring at you blankly, wondering what's on her mind? Can't drink much water even when the weather is hot or when she is sick, Replacing ice cubes with water just in case she over-drink and suffocated. I feel angry. I find millions of reasons and excuses to hate her so that I don't care about her. So that I feel nothing when she finally leaves me. I tried very hard to delete her from my memory. I avoid looking at her face. Feeling despair and sorrow with the sad-looking eyes. Yet, I'm still here, tears rolling down my cheeks silently. My conscience keeps on reminding me who is she. What i'm doing now is wrong but it makes me feel better temporarily before the clock strikes again and I have to wake up in the reality. I feel like i'm a 2 different people before and after I wake up in the real world. Now, she either spends her lives on her wheelchair or lying on the ground staring at you blankly with the sad looking eyes. Skin wrapping on her bones is what still left. Can't wear her socks by herself anymore. She is just like on old baby whom need to be looked after. Bath for her, Changing diapers for her, Make sure the food is not too hard for her to chew. All I can say is only God...........

2011-12-06T21:01:00.001+08:00

Challenges! Seriously, how much we know? How much we can feel from it? When we were writing essay or answering examination questions we never forget to mention the word, challenges. Why? The word seems so grand and powerful enough to include into your sentence and make the whole thing looks so....'cool'? Honestly speaking, when thought about c-h-a-l-le-n-g-e-s, I shivered, I feel fear, it's really horrible and yes, it changes you. You know, the feeling is really unbearable and makes you feel miserable. To survive, you change yourselves, you adapt to the environment. Yes, it is the survival of the fittest. Tell you what, eversince I have started to work till now, I still have this kiddy mindset. I still 'think' that i'm young and let the adults do all the work for me. I'm totally carefree. Eversince I have started my new program, my mental did change a bit. I started to really understand what is the meaning of failure. I finally know how it feels like when everyone succeed and you are the only one lacking behind. I know how it feels like when you are being left out. I know how it feels like when you are desperately in need for support and encouragement. I know how it feels like when you really thought about quitting. I know how it feels like when you want to isolate yourselves. I know how it feels like when the mind-torturing force accumulating and boiling in your body but you can't let it out. You are yourself timing bomb. I know how it feels like when self-help books started to replace your comics. I know how it feels like when YOU ARE ON YOUR OWN. The process of going through all these so called challenges are really not easy. It's mind-torturing, it is breaking me apart. On the verge of collapsing, you have to stand up again by yourselves. You have to choose whether you want to survive or quit. Urgh~it's ain't easy when the latter is more appealing to you. You have to remind yourselves do not quit, You must got the courage to face it and be strong. Incorporating your strength and psychology and FIGHT.

2011-12-03T15:11:00.001+08:00

The very first thing I bought after salary out is, Agatha Christie book series.

Supposedly, I went to MPH and enquired about Fear Street. Unfortunately, the publisher no longer publish it anymore and therefore currently UNAVAILABLE. ~hwah....totally devastated. My body is itching for books now, otherwise I won't be out for MPH with the hot weather burning my skin.

For your information, the entrance to putra line was closed in Masjid Jamek. So, I walked to Petaling Street and take a bus to Mid Valley. Seriously, with this weather, I will definitely won't be going out, not to mention I was there alone. Just because I wanted books so badly, I was determined. lol

Guess how much these cost me? Rm154 after deduction with Rm 5 voucher. This is A LOT. I purposely make it around RM150 because MPH is having a promotion now whereby you are entitled with free membership for MPH card for 2 years.

Well, it is not going to be a boring weekends anymore with movies only. ~cheers~

2011-12-02T22:22:00.001+08:00

What is the lion dance doing here at 8.30 pm? It's not like we are celebrating Chinese New Year Eve.

Am I missing out any celebration day from calender? Ok,I admit I'm not the kind of person who will check on the calendar on and off, figuring when is the public holiday or my Sultan birthday. Im just lazy to do it. Come on, I can't even remember my best friend's birthday. ~opps~

i feel like hanging out in MPH again for tomorrow. Actually I planned to meet up with the MPH staff to see whether they can help me to order R.l.Stine books for me from oversea. If you know me well or checked on my entries frequently, you will know that I'm R.L.Stine hardcore fan and second come to Agatha Christie.

Thanks to Dork Diaries that I'm picking up my books again, I just can't wait to read Fear Street.

I did online research yesterday, trying to find any site that is selling fear street books. Seemed like Amazon.com and Ebay are the only places offering the books.

What shocked me the most is the price. It was so expensive even it was for a second hand book. Together with the shipping fees, the book ain't cheap at all.

Therefore, I planned to check out with MPH store in Mid Valley. If I were to pay the same amount of price, I will rather do it for a new book.

Now I just recalled that my senior advised me to behave more like a girl when I was yawning so loud in the office. Well, the boys were not present at the moment. So......

Lol.

She was like, ''do you want a boyfriend or not?" I said, ''of course I do, but definitely not someone from this office'' since all of them already pre-booked. lol

She said, 'if you want to have a boyfriend, first, you must walked like a girl''. I playfully told her that, ''if they can't accept it, then too badlar,''.

Feeling a little bit frustrated with my answer, she said, ''you got the appearance already, please don't walk like a big sister with your hands swinging as if you are marching''. BINGO!. I told her I marched since primary school. So, the 'left right left' walking style pretty much stuck with me already. Then she told me, ''hold something on your hands and don't lift them up when you were walking''.

As if the 'training' already got started, she asked me to walk to the pantry and refill the water for her. She was joking of course. Lol. Coincidently, the hallway to the pantry does resemble catwalk walking stage. lol

2011-12-02T22:19:00.001+08:00

Today I was a little bit fed up with my colleague. We went out together almost everywhere and talked about almost everything.

It happened when she refused to let me know the full details about a 'story' that we were talking during lunch hour.

Well, it's one issue when she was unwilling to reveal it to me and another issue when she was putting up some 'drama'.

trying to make me desperate to know about the story more.

Yeah, I am an extremely busybody person. I just want to know about everything that is related to me.

I was so pissed off that time that, I pulled a tantrum on her by not having any conversation throughout lunch hour.

I finished my meal very fast and continue to ignore her by reading my Dork Diaries' until working hour end.

When I was about to lend her my dork diaries, I was hesitating whether I should go ahead and hand the book to her or wait till she asked from me.

I was like, if she got the courage to ask from me, I will lend it to her or else I will pretend remember nothing about lending her the book.

Pretty much childish behavior for a 22 years old right?

In the end, I have decided to pass the book to her personally just to show that I'm an adult and should act like one and also the 'Fire inside me seemed to subsided.

2011-12-01T21:48:00.001+08:00

I was having a major super-serious grumpy feeling a couple of minutes ago.

I was so mad with myself because I failed to do 'something' that is very important.

Inside my heart I have this rebelious and difficult to control angry feeling that make me feel like throwing and tearing things off that get into my ways.

2011-12-01T21:12:00.001+08:00

I have started to bring Dork Diaries with me when I go to work. I read it when I'm waiting for train or whenever I have the free time to spend other than gossiping with my colleagues. Lol.

I did share it with my senior and also my colleague in the office and turned out that they like it as well.

This is the second time I'm promoting my favourite books to my friends, after Fear Street.

2011-12-01T20:41:00.001+08:00

Feeling so happy today as I have bought lots of FRUITS from Sogo after office hour.

Thank God that the rain finally turned to small droplets while I was heading home as I forget to take my umbrella with me today.

Well, actually I was just lazy to went back to my house again to take my umbrella eventhough I realized I still left it outside my balcony. I was merely hoping that today won't rain at all.

As usual, it was just a thought and right after I stepped out from my office, I was witnessing a massive downpour right in front of my eyes.

After like 10 minutes later, the rain started to get smaller. I hastily take off and guess what, out of sudden the rain turned big again. Right in the middle of the road. I was like, ''Is this some kind of a punishment for me for being lazy to take my umbrella?"

These are the fruits that I have bought. Mango, dragon fruit, apple, lemon and jambu batu (not sure what it called in English).

Instead of cutting them into smaller pieces and blend them into juice, which I used to do it previously, I just cut them into the size that exactly fit into my mouth.

Nowadays, I have been so lazy to even cut some fruits to eat. I wonder how am I going to be a good mother. Lol.

This is so in contrary to the old me, or is this the REAL me? lol.

Fight for your life

2011-11-29T14:43:00.001+08:00

when you are not in the mood, whatever you do or wherever you go seem to mess up you life even more.

The truth is, you are the one who make yourselves miserable.

Messy room, you don't bother to clean your room and arrange your stuff. Ended getting messier and your mood worsen.

No exercise, exercise seems boring to you, it sounds more like chore when you are in your bad day. Eventually, you gained weight. Meanwhile, you tend to chomp down more food into your throat when you feel miserable. In the end, you gained more weight and you feel even more miserable adding to your current stress.

You isolate yourselves from outside. Not in your greatest mood to meet people especially your friend. Probably you don't want to show them your vulnerable and weak side of you. Lack of interaction constrains your soul and body in a very narrow shell. Causing you to be narrow-minded and whatever comes to your mind, you end it with 'dead' word. Everything is a dead end to you.

You get annoyed when a plastic chair fallen in front of you. You bent down and picked it up and put it back and then it fall down again. Pissed off with the chair. Reason is, when you are in a bad mood, you do your things recklessly, two eyes become one, and only the right brain is functioning.

When it is night time, you feel anxiety. Which means you just realized you have spent half of your day feeling miserable and do nothing. Again, adding up to your own miserable list which is getting longer and longer and get back to you eventually.

Finally, you feel like running away from all the miserable list that has gotten to you. Here comes alcohol, cigarettes and drugs. Anything else you want to add into the list?

Therefore, your final destination will be, jail or death. Not good.

So, to prevent yourselves reaching your final destination too early. You have to FIGHT, not flight anymore.

Messy room, move your butt and clean it up. Make it looks tidy.

Lazy to exercise? Do a 30 minute exercise instead of the usual one hour. Make yourselves sweat a little bit.

Want to be couch potato? Forget about it, it brings you nowhere. Instead, go outside from your house. Have a walk, you won't realize all the trees and buildings look so beautiful at the moment and it will eventually bring you somewhere.

Plastic chair get into your way? Toe hits against the door. Face it, it's not the plastic chair or the door's fault. Put it back nicely and be careful with your step, and accept the fact that the world is indeed too small for you.

2011-11-29T11:57:00.001+08:00

Listeningto ''Only Look at Me'' by GD (Big Bang).

Foundhis voice to be extremely soothing and heart-melting in this song especiallythepart where he sang the word Hangbokke,so sweet-

I havespent 8 hours today reading Dork Diaries, yeah~ turned out that I did buy allthe4 series. ><

Well,the story is nice and sweet, presented in a diary form which made itinteresting.

Itwould be a good reading materials when your mind just too clogged up toreadsomething complicated and wondering who is the murderer.

Whilereading it, I was havingCheeCheung Fanfor my lunch. I bought it whenI'm onmy way back home. Having for like ages didn't touch the food, it tastedheavenly.

Aftermy mind was so saturated with words, istarted to feel a little bit dizzy.Lol.

I haveread up 2 and 1/2 books consecutively. Maybe because i havent done anyreadingfor like months ago, reading sounds fun.lol.

Well,i didn't stop there taking naps. Instead, I opened my laptop and watchedHouseSeason 8, 5 episodes one shot. It was definitely fabulous and satisfying.

Suddenly,my senior IM me. Then, here we go vent out again, pretty much lowereddown ourmounted stress.

Donewith movies, i was busy synchronizing my favorite songs into my tablet PC.

Then iplayed with the built-in camera and found out that it does not come withzoomfunction.Do they purposelymissed that out? This is ridiculous.

Fortunatelyyou can get it by downloading android software, Vignette. Still, i don'tlikethe idea of them left the function out. Even the most simple smartphonecomes withthe zoom function for the camera.

Clockstruck 12 am,what? This is too fast.I'm not done yet, though my eyes feelingdroopy and heavy. The daypassed way too fast. Which mean tomorrow is getting nearer.My last day ofholiday.Sad~Anyway, i feel a little bit weird to on leave tomorrow.Bah!

Whatever~

Apple sales person vs Samsung sales person

2011-11-26T22:47:00.001+08:00

Woke up early in the morning,

Tried to exercise for at least 30 minutes,

Booked movie ticket in GSC website, though I usually buy on the spot. Well, yesterday I have a special mission to do. lol.

I went out from my house at 9 am as usual, but somehow everything was too smooth that i reached Mid Valley at 9.40 am. I used to reach at ten and sometimes took me a little bit longer.

I went straight to the directory looking for Apple and Samsung outlets.

Weird, I couldn't find any of them but it can't be. I saw it online, yesterday.

Wandering around with the the hope of finding the big apple sign.

Finally, I found it! But they not yet opened, the employees were having briefings.
Next, for Samsung. I walked around, having my eyes set for computer and gadgets shops. Yet, Samsung was nowhere to be found.

Urgh! Feeling frustrated. I can't believe that they don't open one in Mid Valley. Idiots!.

Suddenly, The Garden came into my mind. They might open one there. They better have one there.

Keeping my fingers crossed, I went into the mall. Unfortunately, all I could see are branded boutiques, Starbucks and restaurants. Then, I looked up, boutiques again.

Feeling lazy to search the entire mall, I went to look for information counter.

Saw an Indian lady wearing mask with a red bandana on her head, together with her all white uniform, I mistaken her as a janitor at first.

Turned out that I was wrong. When I asked her about Samsung shop location, confidently and professionally she told me it was located at the third floor.
Even if she was a janitor, she must rank senior-level. At least.

Feeling relieved that Samsung indeed exists in The Garden, I went to third floor happily with a little bit of nervousness at the same time.

Guess what? Next to Samsung on the left hand side was Apple, they named it as Machine, though. Weird, huh.

Here is the story:

Samsung:

Sale: -busy wiping the tablet's screen- *Ignore me though he knew I was standing right in front of him.

Me: -Feeling helpless, making my own in initiative to "break the ice"."Excuse me, is it the latest
        model for tablet pc is Samsung Galaxy Tab 10.1?"

Sale: -looked up- "No, the latest is Samsung 7.7, in fact, it just arrived yesterday."
Me: "Does it come with handwriting recognition feature?"
Sale: "Yea, you can even you your finger to write"
- demonstrate to me- unfortunately, the tablet did not want to cooperate with him- He had to make a few rounds to his other colleague for "consultant".
Me: "So, what is the difference between Ipad 2 and Samsung tablet pc? What makes Samsung tablet much better than Ipad 2?"
Sale: -slightly annoyed (duh...what kind of sales person is this?)- "Er..the only difference I would say is only the software. Androids software are 80% free to download".
Me: Em..ok - not satisfied and unconvincing-

Then, I went to the next shop, Machine aka Apple.

Machine (Apple)

Me: - Went inside, and hope that someone will come to me- A Malay guy sales person approached
   me-
Sale: Yes, miss. Can I help you?
Me: - relieved- "Yeah, I want to look at Ipad 2".
Sale: "Sure, this way please" - lead me to the product display-
Me: "Does Ipad 2 comes with handwriting recognition software?"
Sale: -Confused.- "Huh?"
Me: "I saw it online"
Sale: "Oh, those are third party software, they are not developed by Apple."
Me: "So, can I use the application to write my blog? Instead of using the tab?"
Sale: "Oh..miss. I'm sorry. I can't guarantee that. Because it's not developed by Apple."
Me: "So, what so good about Apple compared to tablet pc? Samsung androids software are 80% free" - again-
Sale: "Apple software are 80% free as well" - Then he started to show all the features to me -
          "Only the camera is not as good as Samsung because Ipad 2 is not built for taking picture
           purpose" - showed it to me- Yea, I can see the resolution is bad-
Me: "Ok, thank you. I will consider it"

I went back to Samsung shop. This time the shop was crowded. I eyed around the shop, hoping to find someone that I can talk to, but definitely not the previous sales person. I found someone, who looked like a manager level, at least.
Again, I asked him the same question, and again, couldn't convince me. Finally he admitted to me, his product knowledge is not good. Yet, he was better than the previous sales person. He introduced a lady to me, the trainer.

She was a fine lady, small size around 30-ish. The manager told her everything and he said, he couldn't answer my question, "Why Samsung is better than Ipad 2?". She didn't answer my question directly, instead, she explained and demonstrated all the features to me. Indirectly told me how good is their product.

Well, I think she did a good job. She was able to convince me and she got a deal from me. lol.

* Perhaps, I can use her method for my work. wahahahaha.

180 degree change~ Hello Samsung Tablet PC

2011-11-26T20:43:00.001+08:00

On friday night, with a sudden urge and determination, I told myself that i`m going to buy myself an Ipad 2.

After figured out the financial solution, I started to do a massive and huge research for Ipad 2. Yeah, only for the Ipad 2. While I was conducting my research, I did came across with Samsung tablet PC as well.

Due to the fact that Apple came out with Ipad first, I hardly trust other tablet PCs. Thus, I just forget about other brands and fully concentrate on Ipad 2.

I've have checked the price, features, reviews and everything are good.

My mind already set on which Ipad 2 that I want to buy, until the extent of making my preferred selection through Apple online store with an undeniable huge temptation of ordering it online. lol.

Because yesterday was friday and saturday is a weekend, it is impossible that I receive my delivery the next day after my purchase.

Thank God today is a weekend.

While I was mentally disturbed by the urge to get an Ipad 2, banana signed in from her MSN.

Can't wait to share the news with her, I immediately told her about it. Well, I'm glad I did.

We discussed about Ipad 2, then suddenly Samsung tablet PC came into our conversation. After a long discussion and online researching, seemed liked Samsung won over Apple. Reason are, Samsung has more flexibility in terms of software installation and what makes you feel headache with Apple is that once broken even if it only involved a very tiny component in Apple, the machine is irreparable, which means consider to buy another one if broken.

One thing very funny when I was researching for Samsung tablet PC is that, you can hardly find the price in any website. Unlike Apple, the price is showed right in front of your nose. Wonder why. When doing product comparison, of course price matter the most since these two gadgets do not have much difference in terms of features.

After a long discussion, 60% of me feel like buying the tablet pc.

From my entry title, I choose Samsung of course. Anyhow, I would like to share the incident, what really happened when I encountered both sales persons in Apple and Samsung. It's going to be a long one , thus, I will make a new entry for this.

The Thing (2011 Film)

2011-11-25T22:10:00.000+08:00

*My fingers got itchy again to blog recently.

It was around 3 weeks ago that Banana and I watched this movie together in Golden Screen Cinema, Mid Valley.

What so special about this movie is that, it is the prequel of the movie that I had watched before in my childhood, and the very first movie that gave me my childhood nightmare.

During 1990's (The first movie was released in 1982), I remembered watching The Thing with my neighbor, though I only recall certain scenes from the movie. The only scene that I remembered was when dogs were barking frantically and struggling to escape from their cage while another dog was transforming into a horrible bloody creature (Trust me, lots of blood was involving.

Thanks to Banana's mom, who told her that The Thing (1982) was a very good movie in the past on the day before we went to hang out in Mid Valley. I still remembered, in that particular week, GSC in Mid Valley was on fire due to short circuit. It's not a big one, though. Thank God, otherwise it's going to be a miserable day without movie.

As usual, we would check out movie trailers in Youtube before making our decision.

Though it was just a few minutes movie trailer (The Thing, 1982),it was good enough to make my old memories flew back. lol.
It was on the very same night, I searched for the old movie and of course downloaded it and finished it off before I went to sleep. I think it was around 3 am by the time I finished it. lol

One thing that I really impressed in the movie is that, the creatures look so real and genuine as if those things do exist! I wonder how they made it without Computer-Generated-Image technology in 1982.

In comparison to 2011, the plot was more gruesome and horrifying of course and all the scenes fitted nicely to the story in 1982.

However, the creatures were pretty much looked "CGI-ed", which was a bit of disappointment.

Well, perhaps they couldn't create a more horrifying effect if they didn't "CGI-ed" the creatures. LOL.

1982

2011

Feeling the urge to watch the movie after seeing all these images? lol.

Trust me, it is a good movie.

Desire VS Dream

2011-11-24T21:34:00.001+08:00

I swear! A few months ago I didn’t have the slightest interest on this gadget. I couldn’t find any reason to craze over it, judging from the fact that I already have my own laptop.

When I was an undergrad, I had played around with this thing (Just for a couple of minutes. lol) and found it extremely useless.

A few months ago, I talked about Ipad with my friends and colleagues and all of us got a mutual conclusion that, “I’m not going to buy Ipad”. Even when there are a lot of people already started to use Ipads and you can even see them holding the gadgets in a shopping mall! * I saw it when most of them using Ipads to record a video or snap some images in the event (can’t remember exactly the name of the event, though), yet, I hadn’t find it enthusiastic enough to get one for myself.

Thanks to Forensic Heroes 3, which was released not long ago (The series already ended, by the way.) I saw some of the characters using Ipads to read articles, sitting leisurely on a couch as if holding a book or magazine while reading it.

That time I was like. WOW! I never thought we can do that too! (lol). Another thing is, nowadays, due to my job requirement (==), I have to read a lot of articles! Considering that recently I hate to sit down and lean my back (90 degrees) on a chair for a couple of hours and face my laptop. Even when I was watching movie using laptop, on and off, I do change my sitting positions and eventually turn into couch potato.

this

or this

What I’m trying to emphasize is that, I still don’t like to sit still even when I’m doing something that I like, what about doing something that I don’t enjoy much. (lol).

Maybe because I hate to read materials that are so dull and boring, i thought of getting myself an Ipad might change my attitude.

Funny thing is, when I was chitchatting with my friend again, just a few weeks ago about Ipad, she told me she wanted to get one too, since it is too heavy for her to bring her laptop to laboratory doing research, Ipad might be ideal for her. (lol. what a coincidence).

Anyway, it’s not easy for me to get one too. Ipad is not something that is cheap and affordable. The price is over RM1000++.

I even went to the extent of googling some information whether they offer to make payment by installments. Of course there is a way to do it. Problem is, whether I want to bear the prices or not.

Well, I have been pondering about this matter once in a while (when I was daydreaming about Ipad. lol.). Maybe I’m just looking for excuses to buy one. Who knows my fingers and hands started to feel tired and sore while holding it reading articles. Ipad is lighter than a laptop but definitely not as light as a comic or magazine. Well, UNLESS I got too much MONEY and I can’t wait to spend them off. (lol, dream on)….

2011-10-20T21:15:00.002+08:00

A while ago,

Listening to Westlife songs,

Girls outing ~ Mid Valley

2011-10-15T23:51:00.000+08:00

After getting bored of hanging out in KLCC, we changed our location to Mid Valley this time.
More movies,
More shops,
More foods (lol).

As usual, we will catch a movie when going out.
This time we have "The Three Musketeers" . Honestly speaking, the trailer is not as impressive as the movie itself. We were struggling in between "The Three Musketeers" and "Contagion".
The latter was dropped off because the storyline is predictive.
Anyhow, "The Three Musketeers" turned out to be awesome! It contained both comedy and action genres. Trust me, you will definitely re-watch this movie.

Before the movie started, we grabbed our lunch in LG of The Garden, it was a Korean Restaurant. Darn it! I couldn't remember the shop name.

*Forgotten to take a picture before dined in. Too hungry, I guess (lol)

After watching movie, we went to a few gifts shops, looking for tissue box cover and pencil box for Banana (lol). * Someone is going to start schooling, already.

After searching ups and down, she finally bought it though the price for the tissue box cover was sort of expensive. We continue window shopping and this time our aim was attire shops. Ah! They are just too many shops and too many clothes that you want to buy.

For desserts, we had Snowflakes, it's almost like Malaysia ABC, but a little healthier and lots more variety. XD.

Did I mention they are serve in BIG portions too. XD

We ended our day by visiting Jaya Jusco supermarket. Mostly I'm the one who wanted to do some groceries shop. I have bought lots of Korean and Japanese food, so, the bill was a little bit pricey. Almost RM80!!!

P/S: Pictures are belong to Banana XD.

Trying to live "normally" ~ lol

2011-10-13T22:13:00.002+08:00

Starting from today onwards, I will TRY to sleep normally;
Wake up normally;
Eat normally;
Exercise normally;
Do my work normally;
oh yeah..and SPEND NORMALLY.

Previously....
I used to sleep at 8 pm,
Wake up at 2 am to do my "work",
Then sleep again at 5 am.
Ever since I have started to work I didn't really pay attention to what goes into my stomach,
Okay...now I have to return to my so-called "more healthy meal".
No more "working" during wee hours,
I found out that I tend to slack off if I continue in this way.
And of course, be careful with my expenses.
The first few months I already "invested" into my personal/ beloved items.
So, this months onwards must spend wisely...
~Amen~

p/s: sounds like a vow LOL

2011-10-01T12:12:00.000+08:00

I haven't workout for 4 days already.

Inconsistently drinking my fruit juice + protein supplement.

I guess it is because of my PMS.

Or else, I'm just a lazy PIG.

Sometimes when I came across with certain Ads, portraying a lady with a healthy lifestyle, everything is in

order. You know, as if your live is so perfect so....peaceful. Oh!, I'm longing for that.

Don't feel like looking myself in front of the mirror or stepping into any shop as I already gained some

weight and not to mention my dad is "helping" me to remind me about it.

Well, today I tried to retrieve my old life when I was in degree.

Eat and live healthily.

Yea, you might feel weird why I'm eating unhealthily since I'm living with my parents now.

Well, I can control what I want to eat when I live myself.

Otherwise, life has been a bit stressful now that I just do whatever I want to release the pressure, maybe....

PMS of the month

2011-10-01T11:58:00.000+08:00

These whole week I just feel "HMPH!" most of the time and it reached the climax on Thursday.

I don't have the mood to do anything and I even slacked off when I was working.

Everything just didn't feel right.

Feel like scolding all the people around me, especially the close one.

I broke into tears on Thursday night when I was going to bed.

Feeling guilty because I expressed my anger to my close one.

Argh...just couldn't help it.

I need to find peace. ........

No...no and NO

2011-09-29T03:09:00.001+08:00

Okay, these few days I went home late, around 9.30 pm;

This is not suppose to happen!

I spent a lot because I ate my dinner outside;

Buying drink outside;

Randomly eat, as in I bought it because I just feel like eating it;

WHOA!! This kind of lifestyle is SO NO GOOD.

I was exhausted when I reached home;

Every moment I felt like falling asleep;

Today is the worst! I fall asleep before I take my bath!

I didn't take my carrot juice + protein supplement;

I was too tired to do my research ended up I just slept these few days;

Blimey! This is not suppose to happen!!!

Eating outside means spending more money;

Eating outside means easier to gain weight, which I think is slowly happening to me;

No! No! No! Can't let it happen!

From now on, unless it's important, otherwise I'm not going to hang out at night anymore.

I will just keep my leisure day during weekend.

That's it!

Down..down....

2011-09-27T22:12:00.000+08:00

Supposed to end my day quite peaceful and brace myself for tomorrow;

A few minutes before started to pack away my stuff;

I was "kena sound".

The "volume" was no big actually.

It just that I "kena sound" for something that I didn't do, which matter me the most.

And it is affecting me till now, otherwise I will not be here.

I'm trying to console myself;

Keep on reminding myself that I'm not alone;

Someone had a taste of "it" before;

Even Top from Big Bang got it before;

So, compared to my case, it was just a piece of cake.

I accompanied my colleague to Levain Boulangerie & Patisserie after office hour, trying to search a birthday cake.

Another mission was to try macaroon, small size cake-alike.

Well, it was not really that impressive, though.

Don't really worth with the price.

The journey to Levain was rather a painful one and I still have the depressing mood lingering with me all

along the way, which made matter worst.

After we had our dinner, which were breads and cake, we passed by Pavillion,

Looking for Birthday card.

Did some window-shopping, checking out clothes and of course the price tags, aiming them till the salary is out. lol.

Nothing there heightened my mood and "That" silly feeling was still present.

However, I did get to know my colleague more and I think we are getting closer and I did change my

impression about her.

Well, we can hang out more often.

P/S: My mood is improved a little bit after I had finished this. Listen to a few Big Bang songs can cure me 100%, perhaps.

HOT TOP

2011-09-25T17:55:00.001+08:00

Aimlessly googling about Big Bang.
I’m searching for their fan sites actually. XD
Ended up found this:
Featuring TOP in Gummy’s MV : I’m sorry. Haven’t listened to the song though as I’m not 2NE1 fans yet. XDXD
The most important thing is, I’m going to share these pictures.

Ho! ho! Ho! He is so..cute and younger-looking here. XDXD

Korean Wave Concert 2011 ~ Malaysia

2011-09-24T13:24:00.000+08:00

YEAH~ First time ever been to a concert!
I was so happy that it was in Kuala Lumpur and to be more precisely, just one station away from my house. *Yeah, sort of bragging about the location XD.
Though the ticket price was a little bit pricey ~ RM124.90 and the weather was kind of hot because Stadium Merdeka is an outdoor stadium *hot better than rain, rite lol, the night was just awesome!!!.
HAH! I was intoxicated with SeungRI and GD & TOP performances. Whoa! The scene and atmosphere was INCREDIBLE.
Once SeungRi started to perform, the whole stadium was glimmering with yellow glowing sticks or Big Bang crown sticks and not to mention all the audiences stood up and dance along with the songs. WHAT A SCENE!!
The performance reached the climax when it was GD & TOP performance. Aww…my favorite!!
All of us were hoping and jumping and singing till our lung off throughout their performance while holding the yellow sticks. WHOA!!! That was awesome! I was drenched with sweat and exhausted by the end of the day.
I’m very sure that after this concert, BIG BANG will come to Malaysia!!!.They had witnessed themselves how huge the crowd was.
Honestly, I almost missed out this concert. If my friend hasn’t called me when she was purchasing the ticket, I would have never been there AT ALL!!!. OH!!!!. That was close.
If Big Bang set their feet to Malaysia again, we will definitely going to their concert!!!. This is our promises.

1st: FT Island
   I'm impressed by their performance because I never really listen to their songs. Going to do that more
   lol.

2nd: Teen Top
   A very new and very young cute boy bands. Not bad though. Impressive vocals and choreography.

3rd: 4Minute
   Impressive group introduction and butt-shaking dance moves. HAHAHAHA. sorry, I remember that the most. LOL. Very young girl voices. Great performance.

4th: U-kiss
   Impressive performance , up-to-par with FT Island. Love 2 of their songs. Too bad they have to left early once they finished their performance.

5th: Park Jung Min
   My ex-husband LOL. Though without his band mates. He still pulled off a great performance. His butt
shaking move reminded me of his goofy-behavior. One thing very funny was, he already prepared his script in Malay but lost it. Luckily one of the staff found it and handed it to him. LOL. Cute~ He even spoke in mandarin. Aw~

6th : Seung Ri (Big Bang)
   Never listen to his solo album, but after TONIGHT, i have fallen in love with 2 of his songs. Initiated the HIGH atmosphere before GD & TOP performance, caused all the audience to start to stand up and dance with his songs. WHOO!!. He was a little bit cool, though.

7th: GD & TOP (Big Bang)
   HAH! Needless to say. I come for this. LOL. Im very sure all of us did. THE BEST PERFORMANCE EVER!!!. Too bad they only sang 3 songs. GD was as active as usual. Pulling all the fans to him and heightened the atmosphere ( A true leader). TOP was a little awkward and shy. HAHAHAHA. They conversed in English with the emcee. wow, impressive isn't it. The most unforgettable scene was when all the audience, including me (XD), shouting and chanting encore! encore! encore! and waited there, hoping they will sing more. Silly, yet satisfied. XDXD

p/s: Me and Mei Lian were kind of envied that one of the MC there can speak korean fluently. OH!!! I also want to learn Hangul.

My current life

2011-09-13T00:10:00.001+08:00

It has been quite some time that I didn’t write something ‘long’.

Well, thanks to my “lazy life during weekends” and “busy life during weekdays”.

I’m supposed to off to bed at this hour during weekdays or watching movies or reading manga during weekends. However, here I am, blogging here.

My hands have been really itchy to blog recently and the reason I choose today is because….

my mind was too occupied when I was bathing and ended up accidentally washed up my hair at night. Brilliant, huh

I think I really use a lot of my mind power when I’m bathing. I don’t know why. It just a habit, I guess. Or maybe because I used to cry in the bathroom instead of my room. I just thought, just in case my parents ask me why I’m having rabbit eyes, I can just tell them shampoo has gotten into my eyes. LOL.

Besides bathroom, I did a lot of thinking and daydreaming while I was in the bus, especially when I plug my ears with headphone, listening to my favorite songs.

Third one will be before I go to sleep. Out of these three, this is the one that I don’t enjoy the most. Come on, pondering before you sleep will lead you to insomia. LOL Trying to avoid doing it too often.

Well, here the updates:

Work:

So far, I’m still fine with my current job.

Don’t have the intention to quit yet though on and off I did think about it due to stress and pressure. Anyhow, I still hasn’t gotten as far as hand out my resignation letter to my boss yet.

Do witnessing a lot of coming and leaving colleagues recently. Feel kind of sad about it.

Whenever someone is leaving, I would be asking myself, when would be my turn?

I know this is a silly question, it just a thought by the way. No harm, eh.

Maybe because I just love to do sales?

Maybe because I just love challenges? Getting scolded by different versions daily. LOL.

Maybe because I got this “One-Hour attitude”. Meaning that, no matter how pessimistic, stressful, sad or angry I am, I usually cool down after an hour except when I’m having a PMS .

This might be the core reason that holding me back from quitting my job.

I feel that I’m a loser if I quit just like that. Argh…typical fresh graduate behavior.

Friends:

Still keeping in touch with my gang. On and off we do hanging out together watching movies, window shopping or “coffee talk” (Gossiping).

Just ended my convocation ceremony last Saturday (10/9/2011) and there was no awkwardness meeting my course mates. Everything just like old time.

Getting closer with my colleagues, building up bonds . Well, this apply to the females mostly. It is kind of hard for males. LOL Can’t help it, too little exposure and interaction with the opposite sex.

Finance:

Planning to save up RM1000 every month, but the reality is just the other way round.

Every month there will be a certain reason I have to use my money. Either it’s personal or a necessity.

Anyhow, I’m doing my best to save as much as I can. At least I still want to save some moneylar…

Hobbies:

I used to like drawing when I was in high school. I love to draw manga characters. Any character that I felt nice and cool, I will try to draw it out.The same feeling when you see something beautiful and you can’t wait to snap a picture of it.

The quality is not bad, though it’s not the best.

Once I got internet, my hobbies changed as well to…

Watching movies and reading manga.

It’s already become my routine to open my laptop when I woke up early in the morning until I feel sleepy facing my laptop.

Currently obsess with korean songs with Big Bang most specifically.

New items:

Bought a workout DVD from ministry of sound from oversea.

Bought eyelid gel – Koji Eyetalk with the aim of making my own double eyelids eyes. Just realize I’m born with inner double eyelid. ==. so, things getting a little bit tough here.

Digitally-permed my hair. Friends said I look better with this hair style. so, gonna keep this hairstyle longer. XD

And a body language book, which I bought it from Book fair in KLCC. I haven’t finished the book, by the way.

Future items:

1) Artistry loose powder and face powder

2) Artistry make up remover

3) Protein powder/ supplement in powder form.

4) Sony MP3

5) Toning up tools.

hwaaaahhhh..gotta sleep now. To be continued tomorrow.

2011-08-27T20:19:00.001+08:00

Enjoying real music beat with headphone ~ wondering if I lost my hearing, what I’m gonna do

Having fun browsing through all the good-looking Korean artists and w ~ what I’m gonna do if I lost my sight.

~bodoh~

Facebook/ Blogspot / Twitter

2011-07-10T17:28:00.001+08:00

Going to fully utilize all these internet-based communication features from now on.

“For me to keep up with my friends’ updates and news and sharing pictures and information”

“For me to post grandmother story. XD Sharing my thoughts and opinions”

“For me to post my current status. Something very short and simple. I know..I know..Facebook can do the same. It’s just me that want to ‘Fully Utilized’ all the communication tools. Just for fun XD”

Animation review

2011-07-10T17:01:00.001+08:00

Due to my idle day, I managed to finish watching quite a number of animations during weekends

Honestly, I’m that kind of person who will not watch or listen to new movies or songs if my friends never tell me how good they are.

Naw….just feeling lazy to watch or listen to something that might bored me lol.

Here they are:

Kung Fu Panda 2

“A must watch movie!!!!! Very funny and witty indeed.”

Despicable Me

“I just LOVE this animation, funny and they are super cute. Will definitely watch again”

“A very touching story where the movie talked about the promise of a husband to his dead wife, and turned into comedy when he met the boy, lol. actually the main reason I keep on watching this movie also because of the boy also. He is CUTE!”

Planet 51

“Typical funny animation. It’s just me that having issue with aliens-oriented movies lol. No offence”

The Planet Hulk

“Aha! As surprising as it may sound, I am a fan of Incredible Hulk, LOL. Well, I used to be when I was small. Recalling those days when a hardcore fan like me tuned in to the right channel on the right time to watch it. Predictable storyline, but I still like it. Maybe because it has been quite some time that I didn’t watch any super hero with happy ending story, LOL”

Alpha and Omega

“Nice story but I’m not really a fan of fox and wolf movie. ”

Rio

“Not bad, nice & funny”

The Princess and The Frog

“Just nice and funny and definitely different from expectation”

Tangled

“You just got to love this movie, very funny and NICE!”

Meet the Robinsons

“A very nice and inspiring movie and not to mention nice graphic, as usual. Just stop whatever you are doing and sit down and relax watching this movie if you stress out. ”

Family Guy: Something, Something, something Dark Side

“A totally different style of comedy animated movie. Might not gain interest on those who enjoy Pixar animated movies and those who feel uncomfortable with vulgar words. ==|| ”

Idle Saturday

2011-07-10T14:01:00.002+08:00

Officially established once I have started to work;
Named so due to the fact that I will do nothing except:
EAT!
SLEEP!
MOVIES!
Wahahahaha <evil laugh>;
Maybe because of the hectic life during weekdays;
or perhaps I’m just being lazy in the weekends LOL.
Tell you what, it’s really fun!
However, you will feel dizzy once you wake up from your halfway-fallen-asleep-while-watching-movie-with-laptop sleep.
You just feel groggy and starts to walk like a crab because of body ache due to sleeping on the floor without mattress. <sweat…>
Feeling encouraged to keep on with this lifestyle when my sales manager told us (sales team) to relax and don’t think about work during weekends.
p/s: ahem…maybe I have misused it XD

The Yellow D-day

2011-07-09T17:14:00.000+08:00

First time ever City Centre roads can be so quiet;

First time ever, never see a single car drove on the road;

First time ever something like this can happen so near to you;

First time ever it happened when you are not noticing it;

Just hope that this is the last one.

Probation to Junior Sale Executive

2011-06-28T20:51:00.001+08:00

OH!!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY I HAVE CRACKED THE LAST “EGG” TODAY.

Though the excitement not as strong as the previous one, I eventually manage to lift up a “big stone” from my shoulder at the moment.

Seriously, with that “stone” on my shoulder all this while, my life was never been better.

Every single day I will feel anxious and worry a lot. Feeling stressful and under pressure most of the time wondering will I be able to get myself confirmed within 2 months.

2 months sound long enough, rite? Well, based on my 3 weeks experiences in this job, 2 months seemed not enough for me. Really, especially when you are new in this industry and when you don’t really know how a big and small companies work. Everyday, even when you have called 100 companies, you can either get 1 or 2 deals (if you are lucky) out of 100 or all of them BLOWN!. Yea! I’m not joking here. If you are targeting all those BIG companies especially conglomerates, HAH! Lots of works need to be done before you can speak to the right person and we haven’t talked about persuading them to invest money onto their people. You may even find some difficulties to hear their voices over the phone or speak to them over the phone. WHY? Reason is, they can just ignore your calls *pretending no one there or they have their own personal assistant or secretary to fend you off. ARGH! REALLY NOT EASY LAR if you are new. lol

Honestly, I have been thinking of quitting my job last week *not literary lar…just a harmless thought lol. I really wanted to give up already. I never thought that this job is really that challenging and if you are not in the real situation, you can never feel the pain and stress. I tell you, they really make your life miserable. However, I have changed my perspective *a little bit lar… when I have watched Big Bang documentary on Sunday LOL. The story focussed on how all the 5 members undergo training and selection before they can debut as Big Bang. Of course the path was not easy. One thing that really caught my attention was when the last member of Big Bang, Seung Ri got eliminated for the first time. The YG president already told him that, he got less than 10% of chances to join the group even if he will be given the chance to be re-evaluated. The president won’t mind if he still wanted to practice in the company’s studio but he can only do that when all the 4 members have finished practicing. However, Seung RI never gave up and keep on practicing and improving himself. One quote from his senior, Se7en that really woke me up was, “Though you just have less than 10% to join the group, you will have nothing if you quit. If you try, there is still a chance”. That time I was like, come on, he didn’t even give up when the president clearly showed that he will not be chosen to join the group. He even got the guts and “face” to continue to practice in that company’s studio even when he was no longer part of the company. WHAT ABOUT ME? Hello? My situation is much more better than him and what am I if I just quit just like that. Why he can do it and why not me? *He is younger than me a year by the way. If I’m quit, I’m just a loser and I will just continue to be one if I never take up the challenge and face it. It’s hard but you have to grow up. You won’t be 22 years old FOREVER. lol. Therefore, YOU MUST NEVER EVER GIVE UP EASILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.

Anyway, the very and foremost person that I want to thank is my senior, May. Really, she helped me a lot!. From the day I started to pitch till now she never stop guiding me all the way.

How to speak correctly
what kind of tone that I should use for different people
How to sound confidence and firm *though you are not
Which company that I should “tackle” lol
How did a company work

and the list can just go on and on forever. Seriously, the fact that I’m confirmed within 1 month is also because of my senior, without her guidance I am a nobody going nowhere.

Of course the next one will be my parents who give me mental support and HAVEN’T started to nag me yet since I didn’t do much of housework recently lol. I just can’t wait to get my first salary and give some of the money to my parents. lol. Though the amount is not much, you just feel excited and happy with the idea, right? XD

The last one will be my best buddies *you know who you are lar. XDXD. Unlike old days *chehwah…actually last month just finished final exam. lol. , when we were together whenever we have problems, we solved them ourselves and we faced them together and we support each other whenever we lack. Things really solved easily that time and we were really strong when we were together. Right now, we all have to stand on our own feet and facing different kind of challenges but, keeping each other company and rant out all our problems through MSN or when we hang out really helps a lot. At least, there are someone out there in this world can understand our problem or situation and we are definitely not alone.

My friends my colleagues

2011-06-24T21:15:00.002+08:00

It has been three weeks that I have joined this company;

Starting to get closer with my colleagues, breaking the ice.

Previously, my senior or even now, always worry that I will be alone or being with myself.

“Foong, don’t be so quiet”

“Foong, speak something lar..”

“Got any problem must tell ya”

“Don’t be so stress lar…”

She really is protecting me A LOT all this while.

It’s not that I don’t want to join in the conversation. It just that I got nothing to talk with them. The topics that they mostly discussed are so not used to be the one that I always talk with my friends. lol. How am I supposed to chide in. However, i do enjoy become the listener and laugh with them.

1) I don’t drink

2) I don’t smoke.

Should I really try the above? sometimes this kind of thought really come across my mind. Now I really understand what peer pressure means. Of course I will definitely won’t try it. I already make a promise to myself that I won’t touch any of these. No means no.

Maybe because of her being one of the Top Sale for the company, everyone tries to give her “face”. Well, this is just my own observation. You see, if you can show them you are good, people will look at you differently.

Based on my own observation, I can see that some treat her nice just to “sapu planta”, but some really treat her genuinely. I think she knew it better than me lol. Anyway, why bothers whether they are true to you or not. As long as you know how to take care of yourselves then should be no problem.

2011-06-24T20:56:00.002+08:00

hm….today..today how I feel ar?

My senior had MC today, so basically, I’m alone only.

Feeling sort of worry for the first few hours because I have to do everything myself.

Hardly can seek any opinion or advice (though there is nothing to ask LOL).

Feeling kind of lonely also because normally I can still hear my senior “bising-bising” lol.

Just get closer with her recently, so started to miss her a little bit. Previously, I see her as my senior only (colleague) or superior, nothing more.

Today is my official day to start doing call back. Bearing a lot of hope with every call back sheets. Out of so many, seems like only one company put an interest yet, can’t feel so happy because it’s not confirmed. Only 50 : 50 chance. Yes/no.

Once I have started doing call backs, my outgoing emails/ faxes perday got lesser. GOSH! only 2 emails only. Previously, I was so eager to do call back because my senior was so busy with her own leads and call backs and yet she wanted to help to do mine as well. I felt that she will never got the time to do my call backs, therefore I thought of doing my own. at least I don’t have to be so dependent on her and even if it’s a blown, I don’t have to blame anyone.

One of my colleague just commented yesterday when she heard my senior is doing my call backs to me all this while. she said, “What’s the point of asking people doing your work?” As usual, my senior will back me up and said that, “I will let her do call backs if she (me) can reach 10 emails perday”, Feeling slightly defeated or challenged, she hastily change her words, “No, I mean generally” and bla.. bla..bla…though feeling hurtful with her words, I still think that she got the point.

though I’m a science student,

though I’m still new in this industry,

though I came here for not even a month (after next week, it’s going to be),.

I can’t always use these as an excuse, right? I don’t know. I just don’t feel right to think in this way. reason is, for all I know, if you don’t show your result/performance/ capability in your working place, people will definitely look down on you. You are a nobody to them.

Argh…today really stressful and disappointed lar..Keep on calling and calling and it seemed like no positive feedback at all except one. The fact that I feel that I’m going to get a sorethroat made things worse. I think the reason is because I have been eating spicy food recently. Iol…cari pasal.

My senior and colleagues always say, “it’s like this. This is normal”. Everyone has been through that. “you will suffer in your first month but later things will go easy”. That time I was wondering will my things go better next month?

I can’t deny I’m getting more and more fluent with my pitch and I already got the guts to pitch high level position people, started to talk firm and fight (not really lar) or trying to break through the Personal Assistant and Secretary. I would still prefer if I can speak like my manager. she really got the power to convince people and not to mention, motivating as well. Every time I attended her sales review, I always got the inspiration and hope to be better. Though haven’t really reach near that, i ‘m trying to implement what she has taught us.

1) Must have the guts

2) Don’t show to people that you are begging them to attend your event though you are doing it

3) Must dare to blow your deals.

Hopefully next week will be better. I’m definitely going to do more research this weekend. HWAITTING!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-06-23T04:56:00.001+08:00

Foong, do you drink?

Foong, you come together for clubbing also yea

Foong, don’t be so stress lar..

Foong, don’t be so quiet…

Banana Smoothie

2011-06-22T21:01:00.001+08:00

Just started to make one a few days ago when I was tired of eating banana in the traditional way.lol * means peel off the skin and makan begitu saja…XD.

One thing that make me happy is, my dad was interested with the smoothie that I made. he said, “It tastes NICE!!!” * Before this my dad was afraid to try the smoothie due to his previous experience of mixing red bean beverage with oatmeal together that ended him in toilet for a few times LOL.

Too bad, it fails to attract my mom LOL.

From now on, I will be making banana smoothie for both of us once I get back from work and before dinner. so that we can have it for desserts.

Ingredients:

banana (amount as you wish)
Low fat milk (amount as you wish)
instant Oatmeal (Quantity as you wish)

Blend the oatmeal and milk first. then only add in bananas and blend them together.

Depends on the smoothie’s texture that you want. if you want to make it watery, you can add in more milk or put lesser banana, otherwise you can turn the other way round for more gooey and thick texture.

You can add in some water with milk to make it watery just in case you want to save the milk for longer use (don’t store more than 3 days otherwise the milk will turn sour).

If you want to have it cold, you can blend them with ice cubes as well but make sure the blender that you are using can be used to blend ice as well,

Since I don’t have one, I put them in the freezer for 30 minutes. *therefore I make it before dinner lol. Once I finish my dinner I can directly have my smoothie.

I’m disappointed with you

2011-06-19T16:31:00.001+08:00

I have been really truly extremely definitely disappointed with you recently.

You really have changed so much.

You start to turn into someone who never keeps a promise and yet you feel nothing about it.

I have sent you an email last Sunday to discuss about our problem (should be mine only before I sent to you).

You told me that you can’t reply immediately because you were having finals and will only do it once your finals ended and told me wait for your message on Thursday.

Fine, I will wait for your message on Thursday and let’s settle it once for all.

Funny thing is, I don’t receive anything from you on Thursday, not even a sms from you saying that your message will be postponed to a few more days. Nope, I didn’t receive anything from you.

Fine, I told myself to wait for tomorrow since you have just finished your finals and need some time to rest and regain your energy. Okay, I will wait the mail to arrive into my inbox on Friday.

Dutifully, I checked my inbox again on Friday and again I didn’t receive anything from you. okay, you have classes to attend on Friday, so you don’t have time to reply me. Never mind, I will wait again on Saturday.

Again, I checked my inbox yesterday and non of my incoming emails were from you. I really don’t know what to say in order to convince myself anymore. I couldn’t find any excuse for YOU anymore. The only thing that lingers in my mind is that, you have forgotten about it. Well, this is something that I couldn’t accept especially when it is coming from you. Seriously, I really don’t hope this is the truth.

Fine, I waited again until today. Again and Again, I don’t receive anything from you. What should I say, now? I’m totally speechless. Guess what, somehow I even thought of ending it just like that. I don’t care how many years it has been. The thing is, you are no longer you anymore. If you have anything or problem preventing you from replying me on time, why can’t you just send me a sms just to let me know. Is it really that hard? Come on, this is your responsibility. Since when you have became so irresponsible? How can you not to care a person’s feeling when someone is waiting something from you? No wonder people say, waiting is pain. Unless you have totally forgotten about the email, otherwise I couldn’t think of any reason. Seriously, I’m trying not to think negatively about you, but the thing is, you have been doing it all these while:

1) Promised me to collect my old clothes and other goods from me to donate to someone in needs. Yet, you didn’t do it after like 3 weeks already.

2) I have asked you whether you have any business-related books so that I can borrow. What made me angry is that “Oh, I was just joking with you on that day” and lend me your dad’s books instead which was so not related at all.

3) Once you saw my email, you told me that you will come to my house and explain at 10 am morning. Instead, you have sent me a sms telling me to read your email. Claiming that you were busy with your finals and couldn’t make it. Ended up the whole thing being postponed to Thursday. Again and again. the mail never reached to me until today.

Fine, I will wait for your reply until the end of this month. Once the duration ended, that’s the end of everything.

2011-06-19T15:55:00.001+08:00

One call at 12.30 pm and I got my retainer today. Efficient-nye~ LOL. Previously I was worrying what will happen to my teeth after one week without retainer.

Money ~ slowpoke

2011-06-19T12:19:00.001+08:00

In term of money, everyone turns into slowpoke. *okaylar, me too.

It has been more than 2 weeks that I have requested to withdraw my money from SSPN account and they claimed only 2 weeks working day will do.

I have been checking my account frequently for this week and yet I didn’t see any money increment in my banking account. Argh…this is the thing that always happens when you deal with your country’s “guardian”.

hello…..my mom needs to pay for her medical fees, okay.

The same thing happened when I was waiting for my PTPTN loan for every semester. They never be punctual. Always the third week of the new semester only then the money was released. And always that very particular period that all of us suffered. I’m wondering what they have been doing. Funny thing is, they are much more effective and punctual when chasing money from us. Mine not sure when the letter will arrive. Initially, I thought of paying off my loan once I have started to work but then Banana reminded me not to do that. Let them send me the letter only I start to pay. They will definitely know when I have started to work and they will track me down even if I don’t LOL….

Don’t make me call up to your office, which I hate the most. “Tekan 1 untuk melayu, tekan 2 untuk english, and bla …bla..bla…..”so-called more high-tech wor…

p/s: I’m doing it on Monday by the way.

Defense system finally off !

2011-06-18T17:13:00.000+08:00

After almost 3 years of wearing my “defense system” (*name given by my English for Science Lecturer. En. Mazuki) aka braces, it finally got removed from my teeth.

3 years of enduring the pain, more specifically the ulcers in my mouth that keep on forming whenever my mouth’s inner wall frequently brushed against the metals. Bear in mind, it’s not one ulcer that I’m talking about, they are four ulcers there. Strategically located at four corners of my inner mouth. I named them as “Ulcers empat bucu / four cornered ulcers”

I felt the pain whenever I open my mouth especially when I laugh too much or too loud (you tend to open your mouth wide when you laugh loudly, am I right?);

I felt the pain whenever I was eating salty things, You really can’t imagine how the salt irritates your wounds.

Leftover food/food crumbs/ food remnants or whatever you want to call it, tend to stick or trapped between those metals. Therefore, you MUST rinse your mouth whenever you have taken your meal. Food sticking in between your teeth is really an eyesore.

I can’t take any hard food such as peanuts, apples, carrots and any other food that requires you to bite forcefully. Otherwise, the metals will be twisted or crooked, loosening the strength between the metals to pull your teeth together.

Don’t like to smile with my mouth widely open when taking pictures with my friends because I was unwilling to show up my metallic teeth on those pictures. However, it seemed like I look much better with my teeth showing up instead. LOL

Suffered some pronunciation problems with my metallic teeth. In order for me to pronounce the word, I have to speak loudly and slowly. Or else, all the words jumbled up together and you hear only mumbles.

Now that I have taken them off, it feels much lighter and a little bit weird without feeling those rough surfaces whenever my tongue runs over my teeth. LOL I have to go back to the orthodontic next week to collect my retainer. At the moment, I have a permanent lower jaw inner retainer which I have to wear as long as possible to stabilize my teeth.

“say cheese!!!!!!!!!!”

The Climax ~ the 10 minutes before and after

2011-06-18T16:08:00.002+08:00

Life has been really stressful recently;

With average 4- 5 hours of sleep per day;

Feeling anxious everyday;

Keep on worrying whether I can hit my target before “times up”;

Extremely pressurized and envious when another trainee got his first deal in this week ;

Tension reached the peak yesterday;

Being told that:

1) I looked puzzled some time

2) I can’t do it since I haven’t hit the bull’s eyes till now

Tears started to well up around the rim of my eyes when my senior told me about it personally;

Yet, can’t let those tears to flow down my cheeks;

Must try my best to stifle it no matter what;

Crying and sobbing will just make matter worse ;

Luckily I have my senior to back me up;

Keep on reminding and encouraging me that I CAN do it;

Taught me how to portray the image of you-know-what-you-are-doing to those DUPES that claimed this girl can’t do it.

Honestly, I was so down yesterday. It really seemed that all the miserable stuffs happened in one shot within that very 5 hours.

Once I heard one of my Utarian’s voice over the phone, I nearly cried out.

Out of sudden, I missed my Utarians so much;

I missed those days very much;

I felt like crying and spilling everything out to her in that very moment;

Though we are not that close compared to Banana;

The sound of her voice gave me a warm feeling and sense of belonging and intimacy;

Another dreadful hours passed by;

The apprehension heightened;

I nearly hit the bulls’ eyes with only a few millimeter away from the target;

I just need one call to change my fate;

Both my senior and manager strived hard for me.

Making sure that I got my incentive on that day. (Get a deal on your first week will be rewarded with RM50)

I myself have tried to call and so-called “chase” my customer but to no avail.

Another 10 minutes to go and that’s the end of it.

However, my manager didn’t give up on me.

She tried to call my customer again.

I saw her spoke on the phone for a while;

The only thought that came into my mind was “Argh…for sure it is a no-go (customer not joining the event)”

I was pretending that I was busy with my work, fixing up my documents though I should be making phone calls to find potential customers.

Seriously, I did not have the mood to do that. In contrast to my daily basis, I would have been punching the dials even if it is 5 minutes to 5.30 pm

I just felt like going home and leave the place as soon as possible.

JUST GET MYSELF OUT OF THERE!!!

Then, I saw my manager walked over to our “money fax machine” (being named so because it is the fax machine specially for incoming fax from our successful customer or deals)

I saw some light there.

My manager said it was only one customer instead of two.

Feeling heartbroken “2 become 1” (this is definitely not one of the spice girls 2 become 1 song)

Anyway, I still felt grateful that I at least got one for myself;

At least enough to prove to those dupes that I CAN DO IT.

However, when my eyes fall onto the registration form (incoming fax), I saw two names instead of one.. okay, this time I really puzzled

Apparently my manager was trying to fool me and my senior LOL.

I got 2 delegates for myself and one more to go for confirmation.

She went into our boss’s room to claim the incentive for me because it’s already end of working hour. Based on company’s policy, supposedly I was not eligible to get it because it’s already the end of my first week.

Thanks to my manager for persuading and convincing our boss to reward me the RM50 and at the same time, I saw my senior peeping and spying outside the room (more anxious than me lol)

Once everything done, I made an announcement: “HR Republic, 2 DELEGATES ” Then I RANG THE BELL TWICE.

later on, applauses and cheers came from my colleagues. My boss came out from her room, complimented my good work especially when I’m new in this industry, and asked me how did I feel. * perhaps my manager told her how down I was today LOL.

My reply, “Honestly, the last 10 minutes was a dreadful nightmare for me. I felt so disappointed and down. Seeing May (My senior) and Shamita (manager) kept on doing call backs (chase customers for confirmation) for me but to no avail.However, after the 10 minutes passed by, everything changed”

All my colleagues came to congratulate me and the feeling was really good.

But the most important thing is, I already proved to them that I CAN DO IT;

Who says science students couldn’t do sales and UTARIANs are definitely not a nobody.

Now that I have broken 2 eggs (my dad’s so-called idioms LOL) and only one more to go.

I don’t have to feel so stressful and my heart seems lighter now that I can open up myself and be the me, again. just like old time. XD

Complex

2011-06-07T20:57:00.001+08:00

Another complicated day just passed;

well, today was rather terrible, I would say;

yea, I know. I’m new in this but still, ergh…I’m just pathetic.

Out of sudden, I feel like my English SUX! yea, allow me to use this word.

Really, I couldn’t find any better word to signify the “me” a few hours ago.

I kept on stuck at the same thing.

I mean, come on. what so hard about it?

Just say it out, man.

Why you have to be so nervous?

And Mr Brain, stop pumping adrenaline!!! Not at that moment, okay?

You’ ve ruined everything.

However, I’m very fortunate to have all my colleagues to help me.

Really, without them. I just don’t know what to do.

Especially my senior. she got back pain and yet she still moving here and there to help me.

Yea, I know. if I passed. then it’s good for her too. It’s a win win for both of us.

Anyway, I’m just so grateful that she was willing to do so much for me. Keep on encouraging me and make me feel like I’m a HUMAN and definitely not “Bodoh!”

THANK YOU VERY MUCH!

At least I found that I’m still useful after being with the company for 5 days.

Enough for today. Got work to do. A real WORK.

Work..work…WORK!!! =P

2011-06-05T13:33:00.001+08:00

After 2 weeks of job hunting, I finally settle down in this company, JFPS (M) Group.

At the moment, I have attended 4 interviews and out of them only this one has changed my life. Yea, the second last interview from JFPS (final – Eli Lily (M) SDN BHD).

Previously, I have no clue what is my life goal going to be?

What I want to become?

What I want to achieve?

What is my future career?

Frankly speaking, when I was applying for jobs in Jobstreet.com, I only have this mindset.

“I don’t mind what kind of job that I’m going to apply as long as I got fixed monthly income”

“I don’t want to be jobless once I’m graduated”

“For as long as I fulfill the company’s requirement and job responsibility, I WILL JUST ACCEPT THE JOB!!!! Whether or not It’s going to be related to my field (Biomedical Science), is not really my concerned.”

To put it in a simple way, I set a very low and flexible target when I was job hunting.

Perhaps, I was too freak out of being jobless.* Well, since the issue of fresh graduates become jobless is so common nowadays.

Though some of them keep on reminding me that my first job is very important to determine my future career, I still have to put them aside. All I can think of was “I WANT A JOB!!!”

However, once I have attended this (JFPS) company interview, out of sudden, I have changed my mindset.

From someone who had no idea on her future career to someone who KNOW what she want.

From someone who had set low target during job hunting to someone who is so determined to get the job.

Seriously, that was the first time I told myself, “OH! I want to work in this company! I MUST get this job, no matter what!!”

Not to say that I am not interested or don’t bother at all to the previous companies that had interviewed me, it just that, so far, this is the only one that had successfully “ignited (chehwa…=P)” the spirit or “fire” in me in order to fight for what I want. Sounds exaggerated, but this is the truth.

I myself prefer human touch, therefore I definitely couldn’t work in a laboratory, hospital or any other healthcare or research center where you are solely on your own and interacting with non other than machines and samples.

You must be wondering, why on earth I chose to study in science stream in the first place? Why not taking business-related course? Don’t you think you have wasted your time, money and …..youth? LOL

Well, to be honest, there are several reasons why I chose the science path.

1) Realized that I’m interested in science during Primary 6.

2) Getting straight A’s for PMR was highly encouraged to join science stream. I still remembered what my teachers had told us, “Science students can do both art and science but art students can only do art”. Well, that moment it seemed like taking science subjects were more beneficial, right?.

3) Due to my low self-esteem, lack of confidence and afraid of meeting people (used to be, when I was an obese), working alone or doing research in a laboratory seemed suited me the most at that time.

4) I don’t have any siblings or relatives that I could take advice from regarding my education and future career and not to mention both of my parents do not have proper education.

5) I just continue my science path when I entered university just to be on the safe side and choosing my favourite course which interest me the most.

After many years of going through my undergraduate life, slowly, I turned into someone that is so different from what I used to be. (My very first changes occurred when I was in National Service)

I really have to thank my UTAR buddies who inspired me to change my old self-perception. Previously I used to:

1) Force myself doing something that I don’t like just for the sake of being able to remain friends with people.

2) Worry TOO MUCH on how people perceive me.

3) Not being honest to myself

4) fail to express myself to people. *Whether or not I like it, I will just take it.

5) fail to defend myself and my own rights.

Now, I’m no longer the old me.

1) I don’t bother how people look at me as long as I know what is right or what is wrong, what I can or what I can’t do

2) If I don’t like it, I will just SAY IT OUT! No more chickened out.

3) Stop acting like a loser or freaking out before I try to do something. *You will never know unless you try. SO WHAT! If you fail, better than you regret later on if you quit.

4) Dare to change and accept the new.

5) Never! Never! Never! give up till the last minute. *You can never predict your future

6) Believe in myself and know my rights

7) Praise when i want and express when i detest

HWAITTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P/S: okay, a little bit too much of “fire” for today. =p

OH!!! I’m finally GRADUATED !!!!

2011-05-26T18:26:00.000+08:00

After days of endless worrying;

After days of feeling anxious;

After days of feeling restless;

After days of mental tortures;

After days of mentally and physically preparing myself for the worse;

My BIOMEDICAL SCIENCE Y3S3 FINAL EXAMINATION RESULT IS RELEASED!!!!

Though not much changes, grade still the same;

IM JUST SO GLAD THAT I PASSED ALL THE SUBJECTS!!! OH!!!!! THANK GOD!! DID YOU KNOW HOW DID I FEEL ALL THESE WHILE??????

OH!!! IM GRADUATED!!!

I CAN ATTEND CONVOCATION!!! OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Worse experience ever! ~ stranded in Highway

2011-05-24T22:11:00.001+08:00

As usual, before I attend an interview;

I will visit that company beforehand just in case I lost on that day LOL;

Well, today was rather special.

Having to travel so far for 30 minutes;

Waiting for a bus for nearly 1 hour to reach the company;

Going back home was another headache;

In fact, it was a NIGHTMARE!

Stranded and feeling so helpless standing at the roadside of HIGHWAY waiting for a bus;

30 minutes passed;

2 taxis passed by;

Yet, the bus was nowhere to be seen;

Finally gave up and took a taxi which caused me RM9.70!

Jalan-jalan Cari Kerja di KL & PJ

2011-05-24T21:49:00.001+08:00

Though not joining my passé for graduation trip;

I’m having my very own expedition in Kl while job-hunting;

The most invaluable lesson that I’m learning right now.

PJ and KL exploration!!!

Even though I’m living in the city centre;

Having the most convenient transportation and other accommodations which are envied by most XD;

I seldom utilize them;

Have been using them for quite some time but only limited to the places that I frequently go;

Now that, I’m job-hunting, I’m KL-hunting as well XD;

Just feeling really grateful for the first time of staying in the city centre;

Just feeling extremely thankful recently for all these accommodation.

“KL BOLEH”

Night without Light

2011-05-24T21:32:00.001+08:00

After several years of staying peacefully in Kampar;

After years of enjoying seldom and infrequent electricity blackout;

Finally;

Today;

Tonight;

The very first blackout ever since I came back to Kuala Lumpur.

Pointing aimlessly with torchlight to the ceiling

Upgrading Courses

2011-05-19T23:52:00.000+08:00

Due to my previous intention to apply jobs in government sector, I just realized that it is essential for me to recall back my Bahasa Malaysia, which I believe will be the pre-requisite requirement to be employed.

Therefore, I obediently and willingly lol bought a Malay newspaper today instead of English paper. Honestly, it has been at least 2 years that I seldom speak or write in Bahasa Malaysia. I’m so used to English that I almost have to pre-form my sentence before I can speak in Malay, *pathetic, huh? A student who got an A1 for her Malay language in SPM now has to form her sentence carefully before start to converse. Honestly, 1 year ago I was attempted to write a letter in Malay and guess what, It was so hard for me to start with my first sentence. I was figuring it out for like 30 minutes and yet not even one sentence was successfully formed.Feeling frustrated and devastated, I just write the letter in English which was done in less than 30 minutes. *Terrible!!!

Fortunately, when I was reading the Malay articles, I didn’t feel any discomfort or difficulty in understanding the language. In fact, I can feel some closeness and familiarity there and out of sudden, newspaper has become my favourite reading material. XD Hopefully, with a few more readings I can re-master my Bahasa Malaysia LOL.

While I was reading, I came across with an ads, which was about obtaining a cert or diploma for Kemahiran Malaysia in secretary and office management. The subjects include, typing skills, business study, secretarial procedure. computer & internet, short hand, marketing principle, entrepreneurship and mandarin. The program is under Jabatan Pembangunan Kemahiran Kementerian Sumber Manusia, so, I don’t think it is a scam, right? LOL. Somehow, I was attracted to it and since they are so related to my job, I really got the interest to enroll for the program especially when the place is so NEAR to my house.

I made a call to the office and the staff told me that, it is a 6 months program and I can choose my class schedule (weekdays/weekends/night class). Later on, she told me that an officer will call me to brief me in more details, which I have been waiting till now. *Darn it! I was about to ask the fees, which is the most important LOL.

Okay, I’m determined; once I’m confirmed to get a job, then I will directly register myself before 12th June 2011 (expiry date) =O!!!!!

I even thought of learning new languages which are japanese and korean (top priority XD). Before this, I was so busy with my study and financially unstable LOL. Once I have started to earn my own money, I’m definitely going to learn it XDXD. ~ hwaitting!!!!!!!

2nd Interview ~ Bright Prospect SDN BHD

2011-05-19T23:50:00.000+08:00

Just as I was so depressing yesterday;

I received 2 calls of interviews today.

First, it was from a company named Bright Prospect SDN BHD. From what I have found, it is actually a company that serve as consultant in employment.

Which means their customers are employers and they are responsible to conduct interviews and other necessary procedures to choose the best employee that fulfill the requirement of the company.

Another interview is from MTeam SDN BHD, which is truly unexpected. I was being called to attend a second interview which is located in Pudu as the director of the company would like to meet me. * WHOA! A director! I really never thought a director will involve in recruitment, unless the position is much higher or they are looking for someone who is really skillful or some geniuses.

After gone through an interview previously, I think I have started to feel excited from now onwards whenever there is going to be interviews in the future. I’m not sure why, maybe the thought of travelling here and there, meeting with strangers and seeing new things thrill me a lot. Anyway, it’s better to feel excited than anxious, right?

I’m not sure about you guys, for me, I perform better in front of strangers than close acquaintance. Maybe because I don’t know that person well, so I don’t have to worry whether he or she is going to think that whatever I’m saying is ridiculous or not. Therefore, I am carefree and able to express myself better. To me, it is kind of awkward and weird to be interviewed by someone who already knew who you are. I mean, both parties have to pretend that they don’t know each other during the whole interview session and there are high chances that you will become more nervous and couldn’t express well. Besides, I will feel a little bit depressing if that person speaks differently to me. Therefore , the whole interview session is so pretentious and uncomfortable to me.

Wish me luck for the interviews and hopefully I can start to work soon. XD

First Interview ~ MTeam SDN BHD

2011-05-18T18:53:00.000+08:00

Attended my very first interview today after I have graduated.

Honestly, this was not the first if I take into account the so-called less than 5 minutes telephone interview. which was an unsuccessful one when the interviewer asked me whether I possessed my own transport. Since, I don’t have one at the moment, only the driving license. I was totally not considered anymore *sad case =(. Actually, they had pre-stated that possessing own transport is one of the job requirement. I still gave it a try anyhow. They might hire me, who knows? LOL. The second one was another telephone interview which I have missed because I was in the LRT when my handphone was ringing. I called back the company (too desperate ={ )and after telling them what my degree field, handphone number and the position that I’m going to apply for. The conversation ended till now.

Surprisingly I didn’t feel very nervous about the interview, in fact I felt rather excited. This morning, I woke up at 7 AM. I planned to do my exercise (skipped for 2 days already) right after I have woken up. Somehow, I only started to move my limbs at 8 AM. The truth was, I was way too obsessed with TOP Lol. Keep on replaying Big Bang songs, just wanted to see his face.

Honestly, I was kind of reluctant, unmotivated and lazy to exercise these few days. I’m not sure why. Somehow, I feel the task is TOUGH! Can you believe it? Perhaps, it is the time for me to change my exercise. Maybe I should switch to Yogapilot which I have abandoned it for like..2 years ago.

Initially, I have decided to leave my house around 9 AM so that I don’t have to worry about crowded LRT, which is a very typical issue in KL at the beginning and the end of office hour. However, since I have started my exercise LATE. Everything changed. I started to feel nervous. Once I have finished my work out, I hastily went to bath. Guess what? it was done in 10 minutes!!!! Next, the thing that worried me the most was wearing my contact lens. Normally, I need at least 30 minutes to wear them. Surprisingly for today, It was done, again in 10 minutes. LOL. Perhaps, we become more capable and skillful when we are being stressed. Then, I applied make up and change into my formal clothes. Once everything done, I wore my formal shoes and leave the house at 9.30 AM.

While walking to the elevator, I felt something wrong with my formal shoes. They were too loose! Actually, I’m aware of this problem long time ago and I thought it was because I walked in an improper way. However, today incident proved me wrong. I think I have to wear with a few layers of socks next time. *Hopefully it works. ><. Due to the shoes issues, I went back to my house and changed to my formal-like sandals, which I wore it everyday during my undergraduate life. Initially, I felt relieved as I have changed into a more comfortable one. However, I gradually started to few anxious because I’m not wearing a formal shoes. What if my interviewer penalized me because of this? My mind was so pre-occupied with this matter during the entire journey to the company and I even thought of buying a new one in nearby shops if I got the chance or maybe desperate and brave enough to exchange my shoes with anyone. LOL!!!!! Finally, I had decided to apologize to my interviewer in the first place by the time the interview started. Maybe because of this, I’m less worried about my interview.

The company that I’m going to apply is Mteam SDN BHD which is a call centre and it’s located in Jalan Yap Kwan Seng, near KLCC. However, If I get the job, I’m going to work at Pudu, beside F&N company which is very near to my house.

At the beginning, I was be seated and wait for a moment on the couch. Then I handed my personal information to the HR Manager. A few minutes later, I saw the arrival of another interviewee, which was a guy. Somehow I felt that the guy was displeased with me. He must have thought me as his rival for the job that he was going to apply. Even so, I still think it was so impolite and un-gentleman of him to behave in this way. I bet, he was a fresh-graduate too. Why? Because his action was so immature. >< Fortunately, he applied for different position in that company. Good, I don’t really enjoy any enemy or foe at the moment.

A few minutes later, the HR manager asked me to enter a meeting room and fill up a form. It was not really a form, it was more like a question paper LOL. He asked me to write something which is an open-ended questions (no right or wrong) where I was being asked; “What do you want to achieve?” and “What do I expect from this job?” WOW! It reminded me of sitting for an English test and out of sudden, I felt that I was a student once again. XDXD. Kind of warm though. At first, I really have no idea what I should write in order to fill in the two big and empty boxes. Fortunately, the idea came to me. The answer is, just be honest, and ask yourselves what you really want the most and try to imagine what can you learn from this job. Try to think in different perspectives. Just like doing a mind-map LOL. Not long after that, a lady came in, which I thought was my interviewer and I greeted her VERY politely. The funny thing was, the HR Manager said, “It’s ok, she is not the interviewer”. LOL As if what I did just now was so unnecessary and I can save it for later use LOL. Funny isn’t it? The next thing that came to my mind was, hm….”competitor” LOL. maybe that’s the reason why the guy gave me that kind of look. XD

A few minutes later, 3 person came into the meeting room which included the HR Manager and the interview officially started once the lady was being asked to leave the meeting room for a while. There were 2 guys and a lady that conducted the interview. The chairperson was a director, if I’m not mistaken, the other one was the HR Manager himself and the lady, which I can’t remember what was her position. If I’m not mistaken she was under sales department.

At first, I could really feel the tension, because 3 to 1 really gave me the creeps. However, things started to ease up a little when the chairperson started to talk. Despite being called an interview, it was more like a normal English conversation. The questions that I was being asked included,

“My language proficiency”,

“why I choose this company”,

“why I choose to work in business industry considering that I’m a science student”,

“what makes me think that the company will be benefitted if they hire me”,

“What will I do if I take the science path”

“How’s my last job”

“My expected salary”

“My Hobbies”

“What I wanted to achieve when I’m 25 years old” – unexpected.

“Do I attend anymore interview from different companies?”

“When can I start to work” – means I’m hired???????????????????? =0

The interview ended with the director telling me that I will be informed through phone call if I’m hired. – the phrase that I fear the most. Normally in dramas, when they tell you this, means you are NOT HIRED!!! lol. Hopefully, I’m just overreacting and oversensitive. ><

When I left the company, I still feel the confidence in me, and I even thought that I got a good chance of being hired because in my opinion I did quite well for the interview.

Then when I reached home, I started to pay attention to my Handphone more than usual. Checking it from time to time and making sure it’s not in silent mode (I usually forget to turn on my handphone==||). However, as time passed by without any incoming call, I started to lose the fate on myself and doubt my self-confidence and ability LOL. I even thought of applying more jobs which included those offered by the government. *Be patient, wait for 2 more days. If still no news only then start to apply them by this Friday. Am I too rush? Is this the correct way? Should I wait for at least one week? argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! headache!!!!!!! GOD!!!! I just want a job, please……………..

p/s: Maybe I’m not that fortunate to get a job in my first interview. >< A little bit more brush up, More interviews!! Fine, I will treat it as one of my experiences.

A trip to Cheese House

2011-05-15T00:51:00.000+08:00

It has been a few months already that we didn’t hang out. Mainly because both of us were too busy that time. Initially, I thought of asking some advices from her regarding my job application. However, since I already completed everything at my cousin’s house, our my conversation for today was mainly focusing on girls’ talk.

She was involved in a car accident with a friend and luckily she just needed to get some stitches.
Speaking about stitches, she told me how unprofessional KPJ Specialist treat their patients where money is their only concern. This caused her chose to receive treatment from HUKM which was surprisingly much better and more professional.
We talked about taking some actions regarding the above matter and she told me she is going to file a complain to Medical Association once she has recovered,. I told her to count me in. LOL
Then it was my turn to file LOTS of complains to her about my life in Kampar, especially about FYP and a few “antagonists” which get on my nerve.
Finally, I had successfully INFLUENCED HER TO LIKE TOP AS WELL. XDXD. I was just so happy that she told me she started to like him already because he was so MAN. I JUST KNEW IT. XDXD

Quick Shop at Sungei WANG & Times Square

2011-05-14T23:52:00.000+08:00

Once I had received a call for interview, the first thing that came to my mind was, formal clothes.

At the moment, I just have the one and only presentable- white-quarter-long-sleeve-top and a black pants. I did have several more formal tops, it just that they are too old and crumpled to be worn for interview. Besides, I’m not sure why I got the urge to wear skirt this time. LOL. maybe because I never wear one ever since high school.

While having my free internet service at my cousin’s house, I told her about my attire and she said that we could go to Times Square to have a look.

After I have finished cleaning up my store room, both of us went to Times Square at 4,30 PM. Whoa! This was the first time, I went out at evening and the sky would definitely turn dark by the time we got home.

After having “trapped” for quite some time in Kampar, being able to see some tall buildings, cars, escalators and lots of beautiful and sparkling lights really cheered me up. The very first thing that I bought was a flexible hair band that allow you to tie a neat bun. * Sorry, couldn’t figure out the specific name for this hair accessory. LOL

RM 12.90 ><

Seriously, up to this moment I never able to tie a neat bun. So, I’m really envy with those girls who able to have nice hair buns on their heads. LOL. Hopefully, I could do the same thing for my interview.

Next, we went to check out some make up items at Elianto booth. Our main target was eyeliner. My cousin helped me to apply eyeliner on my eyes previously and I kind of like the effect. XD. we checked the price which was RM 20. I told her that I wish to borrow hers for temporarily until I can buy one with my own money once I start to work. *Pathetic, huh? Well, I still need to buy other stuffs, especially my formal blouse and skirt. Fortunately, she didn’t mind, or maybe she did. It just that she didn’t show it to me LOL. *thinking too much. I will definitely get her a new one next time.

Then, we ventured to Sungei Wang to look for clothes. We had surveyed lots of shops and non of them really caught my eyes but they definitely suit my cousin’s style LOL. Since she didn’t plan to by any clothes, we went back to Times Square to look for my style because I know exactly which shop I should go to get what I want. Before we went back to Times Square, I bought a lip ice for RM11.90 at Guardian, which was a few ringgits cheaper than Watson.

We directly went to shop that I want. Unfortunately, I couldn’t recall in which floor it was located. LOL. However, I did remember it was somewhere around the 3rd and 4th floor. My cousin suggested that we started with the 4th floor and we did found it. We went in and checked out the skirts that I want.and I chose a few pieces to try on. Guess what, that brat said she wanted to come in and see. LOL.No way~.

After several minutes of trying the skirts, I finally set my eyes on this one:

RM 29.90

When I was about to pay the skirt, I realized that I don’t have enough cash! My only alternative was my Maybank Debit Card. * I was too lazy to look for ATM machine. ==

Unfortunately, the sales girl told me that only purchase more than RM 50 can be paid using card. Fine, I bought myself another piece of formal blouse. It isn’t that bad actually, since eventually I need to buy another one soon.

RM 29.90

My cousin asked me to try both. Guess what, I actually looked good on it. XDXD. Way much better than wearing a pants. LOL. * Argh! I forgot to take picture LOL. Before we went home, I told her to pay a visit at Cold Storage for a while as I wanted to buy bananas. You are not going to believe what I saw. They didn’t sell one comb of banana, Instead, they sell 2 to 3 pieces of them for certain price, which was more expensive. *Even Tesco Kampar sell them in combs.

Finally, we headed home at 7 PM. That time I received my dad message urging me to go home to have dinner LOL.

Memoirs of TehPunyaStocking’s Unlimited Properties

2011-05-14T23:20:00.001+08:00

Finally got my butt off and started to clean my room.
Arranging my books (comics, novels, storybooks, academic books) was my initial plan but ended up cleaning the whole room. XD
After months of “drop and leave” my stuffs every time I came back from Kampar, especially my comics and storybooks, they all started to pile up messily in my room. Well, it’s not really my room. It is a store room anyway. However, I plan to make it MINE in the future. Therefore, the cleaning has to start now. * Maybe I’m just used to the luxury of having my own room in Kampar for 2 and a half years lol.
While cleaning, I found lots of “old” stuff in the cupboard which I have neglected for years, perhaps? Well I haven’t been rummaging my belongings for quite some time. Mostly due to laziness XD.
These are what I have found and I just feel like snapping some pictures of them and share here. *Mind you, pictures are taken with my cellphone. So, don’t expect any high quality pictures LOL.

The Initial Stage

A “calling card” which was once a hit during primary school age

High school library member card

Gift exchange from friend during primary school

The very first and last Ping Pong bat from dad during primary school. Just for the sake of my extracurricular activities

One of the long-forget-unmailed handwritten letter to my friend during primary school before I know what is e-mail LOL

One of my sticker collection which I kept in a specialized folder before I got it from free google image [Detective Conan] –high school

One of my sticker collection which I kept in a specialized folder before I got it from free google image [Cardcaptor sakura] –high school

One of my sticker collection which I kept in a specialized folder before I got it from free google image [Doraemon] –high school *Tiffany going to scream when she see this XD

One of the birthday gift from Cheese when she knew I WAS a hardcore fan of Harry Potter – High school [Harry Potter Door sign]

Random Wang Lee Hom Newspaper cutting when I was crazy over head to toe for him. Keep it just for the sake of his picture before Internet was introduced in my family. p/s: occasionally sneaked into my room and peeped his picture

Another random Wang Lee Hom Newspaper cutting

Another random Wang Lee Hom Newspaper cutting though his news just occupied a small part in the newspaper XD

Photocopied information which I obtained from National Library for my Geography assignment – First trip to National library before internet.

Photocopied information which I obtained from National Library for my History assignment- Second trip

Folder which I used to keep the information

One of the Harry Potter gift item if you make a pre-order for the book. A trend for me and Cheese whenever new Harry Potter book series released.

One of the Cheese birthday gift item

Long-forget-unused mug from Harry Potter free gift

Classical Children Story Books which I bought from Carefour

A collection of exchange gift from primary school friends * I lost most of it. DARN IT!!!!

A Christmas card from Cheese who never fail to send to me every year [front]

A Christmas card from Cheese who never fail to send to me every year [back]

Free item for purchasing Original Wang Lee Hom VCD. My Precious item before I know the alternative way to get songs and before I change my husband. XD

Another Christmas card from Cheese [front]

Another Christmas card from Cheese [content]

My first encyclopedia which I “took it without permission” during primary school =P

Second board game which I had bought

with empty-unfound tiles =_=

My first and last scooter which I forced my mom to buy from Pudu Plaza when I couldn’t get a free scooter from Mat Cool ice cream sticks =P

Two- and- a –half- year –untouched- lecture notes from foundation and degree (y1s1) which I thought I have discarded them away. * well, they are now. PERMANENTLY =)

An interesting subject which I only figured out how to do it during FINAL EXAM.

Self-made Photoshop tutorial notes which non of them I have successfully learned until now. The only thing I know is to remove wrinkle with this software. LOL XDXD

Self-drawn anime which was a popular trend during high school and my most favourite and healthiest hobby before Internet. LOL

Another self-drawn anime

That’s all for today. Ciao!!! XDXD

Journey to The Quest of Employment

2011-05-13T02:09:00.000+08:00

Once I had my breakfast, I went out to Pudu to take a passport size photos for the sake of my job application.

What so special for this time passport photo shot is that, I had make up and wore contact lens =P

Well, the process were of little funny where I took 45 minutes to wear my contact lens and spent another 20 minutes to brush up my face.

What was more hilarious was, I had decided to walk to Pudu instead of taking LRT. It was a walking distance, to me lar. LOL Ended up, I reached there drenching up my body with sweat and I looked a little bit shiny in my passport photo. T_T

What I have found out was, we can actually request for soft copy of our photos. *Or I’m the one who missed this LOL. I did it just for the convenience of uploading my picture to Jobstreets.com since I’m applying my job online and not till next tuesday only that I will go to Kampar to pack all my stuff including my scanner and printer.

After I had my lunch, I went to my neighbour’s house (aka. my cousin) to have free internet service and started to apply jobs. Thanks to his dad who is a taxi driver and I can consult him regarding the locations of the companies that I’m going to apply. You wouldn’t want to end up applying for a job that is way too far from your home and there is no public transport available for you to get there.

After I had applied half of the jobs, suddenly, I received a call from Mteam company which invited me to have an interview on next wednesday. WHOA! I was never expected to have such a speedy reply from any company, since it is a Friday. I was expecting everything to start next week LOL.

Wish me luck for the interview and it will be great if I can start to work soon. =P

Final KTM trip from Kampar to KL for my undergraduate life

2011-05-12T01:05:00.000+08:00

Once my last paper (Virology) for my final examination had officially ended at 4 PM, I used my remaining 2 hours to sell my bicycle and pack my stuff before I headed to Kampar KTM station at 6 PM.

I know it was a rush and perhaps I was the only who SEEMED can’t wait to leave Kampar. LOL I even missed out the Biomed photo shot where everyone were wearing self-design “BIOMAD” Jersey. Thanks to Pell See for making the initiative to be in charged of the design, buying and delivery LOL.

The “BioMad” Jersey [front]

The “BioMad” Jersey [back]

The “BioMad” Jersey [logo]

Am I really that hardhearted for leaving my friends who I’m not sure whether we are going to see each other again? Who originate from NORTH, SOUTH, EAST and WEST of Malaysia. Am I going to miss every bits of sweet and sour memories that we had shared for 3 or maybe 4 years for being each other classmates and company? Of course, I DO! It just that I was so preoccupied and predetermined to not waste my time and start to look for jobs when I’m back to KL.

So, these were what I felt during the whole journey:

Arrived quite early at the station. Part of me was hoping to bump into anyone I knew just like every time I took the train back to KL.
As usual, I was hoping to sit next to a Leng zai in the train if Banana is not there. LOL =p
Staring mindlessly at the window when the train started to travel.
Eventually fall asleep
Woke up after 1 hour and just realized that I still have one more hour to go
Sms-ed Cheese and told her about “the end of my university life”. Was so desperate to find someone to talk to since Banana was not there.
Continued to stare mindlessly at the window and hoping to reach KL Sentral soon

Yeah! Introducing~ Choi Seung Hyun (최승현)

2011-04-28T19:05:00.001+08:00

Erhem…some of you may not know who am I referring to. What about this?

T.O.P from Big Bang!!!

Known for Best Rapper in South Korean and also his KILLER EYES & SEXY DEEP VOICE.

Aww….LOVE this pose the most ~

Still looking good in black hair

EXTREMELY envy with that girl but gotta admit T.O.P looks so hot here.

Yes! and Yes again. I’ve changed my idol NOW!. Which means Bye Bye Nichkhun and welcome T.O.P.

Ever since I’ve watched this video, my idol type has totally changed from good boy to BAD BOY IMAGE. I don’t even believe myself that I can fall for bad boy LOL. Not in a million years~

GD & TOP (Don’t Leave)

Thanks to RongCuin for introducing this hottie. WAHAHAHAHAHA

As I was searching for more videos of T.O.P, it turned out that I love BIG BANG music as well. No wonder they were the TOP band in Korea. Check this out~ sounds very catchy to me , especially T.O.P!!!

BIG BANG (Tonight)

Oreo Cheese fridge cake as a birthday cake

2011-04-26T11:15:00.000+08:00

Both me and yen ee were raking our brains to find a birthday gift for Banana. Me, being the one who was so picky made our task harder as I want my friend here to have a special birthday gift =P. You see, I don’t simply give present to anyone and once I really plan to do so, I want that gift to be special. VERY SPECIAL! LOL.

A few days ago, I got this sudden urge to make a fridge cake. I even got myself a chocolate fridge cake with peanuts and raisin last week. Well, the taste ain’t bad but definitely not the best. XD. As I was searching for more recipes, I came across this~ “Oreo Cheese Fridge Cake”. I checked out the ingredients and I guessed it won’t be that difficult to make one. Considering that you don’t need flour, eggs, baking powder, this and that which usually made your life harder. LOL.

I told Yen ee about the idea of making an oreo cheesecake to Banana and she seemed thrilled as well. Me? I way too excited of course. XD. However, the main problem was I never cooked to anyone before. So, there was some little pressure here and not to mention that I just started to cook myself not long ago. Judging from this fact, I’m still a newbie in cooking and still asking for helps and advices from everyone. Cooking for someone means you are confidence with your skill. Not to say that mine are lousy but I’m still not ready to let someone try my dish. LOL.

Since I’m not so confidence with my cake, I asked my friend’s help, Ben. Here’s the ingredients:

# 250g cream cheese

# One roll of Oreo biscuits

# 80 ml Low Fat milk

# 1 table spoon of gelatin

# Planta (Most preferably UNSALTED butter)

1) Separate Oreo biscuits from the cream and crush the biscuits as fine as possible.

2) Mix marjerin or Unsalted butter with the biscuit crumbs

3) Place the mixture onto a round plate.

3) Press and compress the mixture as hard as possible (VERY IMPORTANT) and store in the fridge for at least 15 minutes.

4) Softened the cream cheese and mix with the Oreo biscuit’s cream.

5) Add in 4 pieces of Oreo biscuits (in powder form) and mix well.

6) Heat 80ml of milk and add in 1 table spoon of Gelatin.

7) Pour the milk onto the mixture of cream cheese and mix thoroughly.

8) Take out the Oreo crust from the fridge.

9) Pour mixture onto the crust.

10) Keep in fridge for at least 3 hours before it ready to serve. Most preferably overnight.

* Never let your cake stays at room temperature for too long as the filling will turn soft. XD

Glad that she loved it so much and most importantly it was edible. WAHAHAHAHAHAA.

2011-04-18T20:36:00.001+08:00

“Once in a life time” is no longer exist in my dictionary. NEVER!

I don’t believe it! In the mid of my study, I have to worry about this. I don’t care how many people are sharing the same fate with me. As far as I’m concerned, it’s a TORTURE. Mentally torture!

It makes me ponder about it for as long as the hour ticks; for as long as other problem replace

it and occupy my mind;

it makes me restless;

it makes me fret and agitated;

it makes me crouched in the ‘dark’ and see nobody;

it turns me into someone else that I myself couldn’t recognize;

It makes my imagination gone wild; doing things that I feared the most but dare enough if I'm losing the grip.

I try not to blame, but I COULDN’T!

I try to be optimistic, but I CAN’T! *that’s why I hate you……

I can’t remember how many times I reminded myself the same thing over and over again;

I have been trying to view it in another perspective. Again…. I FAILED.

I always tell myself, life is like a wheel. Spinning all the time. You won’t stuck at same place forever. Things will change. but…I wonder how long I can wait for that change to happen? How long shall I wait? YOU tell me.

Facebook

2011-04-18T16:18:00.001+08:00

After several days of being unable to access Facebook with the LATEST version of Mozilla Firefox, I FINALLY can do it by today. I bet it must be the browser incompatibility issue. You know, Firefox is too up to date sometimes. I mean, comparing it with other browsers, I think so far only Firefox always come out with new updates or add-on. Being up to date is a pro, however the con is applications incompatibility is the major concern here.

I had been using other browsers such as Internet Explorer and Google Chrome for these few days. However, the more I’m using them, the more I missed my Firefox. The feeling is isn’t right. Reason is, I have been so used to all the functions and tabs of Firefox and not to mention all the applications I have installed were basically to boost my Firefox performance. This has caused other functions in different browsers like aliens to me. LOL.

At first I was suspecting my account being hacked by God-Only-Know-Who. However, come and think of it. Why someone out of no where chose to hack my account? Who am i? A celebrity? Hottest Facebook user? Top Favorite Facebook user? No! No! No! Basically, I’m just an ordinary and occasional Facebook user.

I used to be a hardcore fan of Facebook. I posted nearly everything onto my wall. However, this means I will become less active with my blog. Anyhow, I have to choose between both of them and devoted to my choice. Now that I am a frequent blogger (if all those nonsense I wrote earlier were counted =P), it does feel a little awkward for me to update my status on Facebook. As if suddenly, I’m exposed to the outside world with a huge population. I’m not sure why I have this mindset, maybe it simply because I’m not used to do that anymore.

Lunch of the day ~ Jap. Egg Tofu

2011-04-18T12:38:00.004+08:00

I have been eager to try this out ever since I had my first scoop in UTAR canteen. It has been quite some time I didn’t cook my dishes with tofu; basically just getting tired of its taste. The reason might be because there was a time I had been having tofu as my main dish (steamed or boiled). I guess I was just too obsessed with eating simple and plain meals. (lol).
Just to make my dish more wholesome and even more healthy, I added in carrots, egg and bean noodles thread with stock chicken and some black pepper. I also have added in a little bit of corn flour (quarter of my spoon) just to make the gravy texture looked more sticky or gooey. Finally, I served it with a fresh tomato (I never like cooked tomatoes as they taste weird to me.)
Recipe:
* 1 roll of egg tofu
* 1 egg
* 1 stick of red carrot
* 1 small bundle of bean noodles thread
* 1 or 2 table spoon of stock chicken
* 1/3 of corn flour
* onion and garlic (self-estimated)
* Black pepper (optional, if you don't like it to be spicy)
1) Fry cut onions and garlics until fragranced and turned brownish.
2) Add in one bowl of water
3) Add in chicken stock, fish/soya sauce and sesame oil (optional as the chicken stock is enough for taste).
4) Add in boiled carrot (I boiled them beforehand so that I don’t have to cook too long).
5) Add in cut Japanese egg tofu (you can fry them first together with onions and garlics, if you want to) and
bean noodles thread.
6) Sprinkle some black pepper and stir
7) Add in corn flour
8) Stir until bubbles formed
9) Served with fresh tomato

It looks something like this.( Ignore the meat and onion leaves) =)

Source: http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v651/angcy/2010%20food%20pic/braiseeggtofu2.jpg

Hunger Festival

2011-04-17T18:09:00.001+08:00

My love for food is getting more intensive recently. *DARN IT! Almost at any moment and any where, I can think of the food I want to it. First, spicy, then cheesy, crunchy and finally bread !!!! Fortunately, I don’t have any snack stored in my room, or else I’m going to stuff all of them into my mouth. Pathetic.

p/s: I want an egg tart now….><

2011-04-16T15:51:00.001+08:00

Spotted two crippled dogs today. It has been such a long time that I had seen any sign of them.

2011-04-16T12:58:00.001+08:00

A great day to snuggle on bed

2011-04-15T15:46:00.002+08:00

The feeling is gradually fading…………………………..><

The 14th April 2011 of Medical Genomics Artwork Presentation

2011-04-14T16:04:00.003+08:00

Notice the first word “The”? It’s the best and most memorable presentations ever in these 3 years of my university life. All the groups performed very well. Each had their own creativity that guaranteed to make you laughed nonstop on your seat, eyes brimming with tears and yet highly impressive artwork presentation that surprisingly us, The Science Geeks can pull off. Looks like my undergraduate life doesn’t end with empty-handed. XD

Hospital Lao Ya by “D’ Gete” ~ That's Us XD

Gene Cloning by Pretiba’s group

Genetic Counseling by Ervin’s group

Chromosome Walking sing-along from Michelle's group

Kampar CSI from Jireh’s group

Short-Gun Sequencing dance and song from Kyan’s group

Knock Out Mice song from Esther’s group

Eugenetics from Bernice’s group

PCR from Ben’s group

and one more, Medical Genomics news report from Lisa’s group. Too bad, pic is unavailable here. ><

* source: Banana