Today...

sudden surge of feeling of missing someone Funny thing is, I am not sure it is referring to who this time posted from Bloggeroid

This bring back the reason why I started to blog few years back. I am not an expressive person, I always have a hard time to express myself verbally. I am not deaf nor dumb. It just that, I could hardly express my deepest feeling to other people, not even my parents. You can say that, I hardly share my feelings to other people and yes, I am kinda "close book" person. Lot of digging effort required if you really want to know more about me.  Yet, somewhere in the corner of the earth, I do share my secrets, not all but 80% at least lol. with one person and she is my best friend. A really close one. hahahaha.  Those who are not my close acquaintances, might find it a surprise to see the other side of me. The moment I started to share my Blog's link online, say, Facebook, Twitter or any online account that I have signed up ,  I am hoping that, as I always do, the right person   will find out about my blog. I mean, if you are really interested on someone, you

I always complain to myself whenever my applicants are looking for easy job and easy money at the same. I would always say, "Nowadays, the youngsters are really lazy and it is not about them hunting the job but it is the other way round". Can't believe I am telling this to myself too. Being a recruitment consultant, I expose myself to the working industry. More or less, it teaches me a lot in terms on human behavioral. Being in a sales line, I got myself into a fast and stressful working environment. Everything is about target and deadlines. bla..bla...bla... Whether I want to believe it or not, sometimes you need a little bit of "luck" too when you are doing sales. I had witnessed quite a number of people coming and leaving the sales industry. Some were non-performers, that s' why they leave. But there are some of them, who really work hard, do whatever they should but in the end, they just lack of a little bit of "luck:". Eve

Malaysia has been surrounded by haze which started last week; I didn't really aware about the haze until I read it from The Star online about a week ago and only started to take into account about the haze when it affects my residential area, to be precise, ME. To me, this is really a serious one because I suffer from difficulty in breathing whenever I step out of my house, which seldom happen to me. lol . Especially I with my active lifestyle. Not trying to impress, but just stating the truth. The haze really makes me feel reluctant to leave my house. Anyhow, I didn't wear any mask because, I feel suffocated when I am walking with it. It is already hard to breathe in this kind of weather, covering your nostril  worsen my breathing. Now I am hoping the rain will come soon to wash off all the smoke and whatever particles covering the air.

Just this one before I off to bed:  We always being referred as the strong ones; The dominant species; Worse, intimidating the males. Am I really that "strong" ? Maybe mentally or emotionally slightly stronger and tougher than other girls. In term of strength, I can't beat guys even when they are obviously skinnier than me. Thank God I don't really like people to address me as the strong one, even by giving me some nicknames. I'm a tall girl, and my bone structures are expected to be big enough to balance my height and support my body. I'm already physically outstanding, giving me names that show I am big and strong irritates me. I don't know is it fated that all Aries girls are like that. We want to behave like a normal girl. Oh, tell me about being a normal girl Giving the people the impressions that we need protection. We are not really that strong you know. It is just the impression that we are giving to others. We are j

Unexpectedly turn myself into a love advisor when we are talking about boys with my friends, recently. Funny thing is, I have zero experience in dating or relationship with guys. Load up with so-called guys' information, say, how is their minds' work and what a girl should do after plenty of readings and researching on my own. Really? Just by reading numerous of articles and opinions can really make myself to understand boys better? I can't help but to ask myself, "What the h@ll I am doing?" whenever I had voiced out my opinion when my friend asks me about her crush. I used to have my own crush and maybe still have it till now. I shared my own experience with her and how I felt. What are my doubts and dilemmas. Sometimes I even wish that I have a d@mn scanner to scan the guys' brain so that I know what are they thinking. To me, I prefer the direct approach. You like me, I like you then we can start dating. hahaha I can't believe that th

Phew! Just finished making calls to candidates. Yep~ I am not hitting the gym today because of menstrual pain. The thought of jumping and hopping or cycling with that muscle cramp in my stomach totally killed my desire to attend any Les Mills class. I guess this is the first time I skipped gym due to period pain. Feeling really stress recently. Work and of course family matter. Work:  - Being the top performer at the moment make me feel proud of myself but at the same time slowly being      killed by the stress that is growing upon me.  - I can't slack and have to keep on moving forward and continue to perform where a lot of eyes are on     me now.  - I'm very sure this is part of the challenge that I need to go through in my life.  - Wondering how my manager can sustain in this line for so long, 13 years man!!!  - Sometimes I did wonder why I am not working in administrative or any routine job whereby I just do the     same thing everyday, no surprises or no