Today...

OH!!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY I HAVE CRACKED THE LAST “EGG” TODAY. Though the excitement not as strong as the previous one, I eventually manage to lift up a “big stone” from my shoulder at the moment. Seriously, with that “stone” on my shoulder all this while, my life was never been better. Every single day I will feel anxious and worry a lot. Feeling stressful and under pressure most of the time wondering will I be able to get myself confirmed within 2 months. 2 months sound long enough, rite? Well, based on my 3 weeks experiences in this job, 2 months seemed not enough for me. Really, especially when you are new in this industry and when you don’t really know how a big and small companies work. Everyday, even when you have called 100 companies, you can either get  1 or 2 deals (if you are lucky)  out of 100 or all of them BLOWN!. Yea! I’m not joking here. If you are targeting all those BIG companies especially conglomerates, HAH! Lots of works need to be done before you can speak to th

It has been three weeks that I have joined this company; Starting to get closer with my colleagues, breaking the ice. Previously, my senior or even now, always worry that I will be alone or being with myself. “ Foong, don’t be so quiet ” “ Foong, speak something lar.. ” “ Got any problem must tell ya ” “ Don’t be so stress lar… ” She really is protecting me A LOT all this while. It’s not that I don’t want to join in the conversation. It just that I got nothing to talk with them. The topics that they mostly discussed are so not used to be the one that I always talk with my friends. lol. How am I supposed to chide in. However, i do enjoy become the listener and laugh with them. 1) I don’t drink 2) I don’t smoke. Should I really try the above? sometimes this kind of thought really come across my mind. Now I really understand what peer pressure means. Of course I will definitely won’t try it. I already make a promise to myself that I won’t touch any of these. No means no. Maybe

hm….today..today how I feel ar? My senior had MC today, so basically, I’m alone only. Feeling sort of worry for the first few hours because I have to do everything myself. Hardly can seek any opinion or advice (though there is nothing to ask LOL ). Feeling kind of lonely also because normally I can still hear my senior “bising-bising” lol. Just get closer with her recently, so started to miss her a little bit. Previously, I see her as my senior only (colleague) or superior, nothing more. Today is my official day to start doing call back. Bearing a lot of hope with every call back sheets. Out of so many, seems like only one company put an interest yet, can’t feel so happy because it’s not confirmed. Only 50 : 50 chance. Yes/no. Once I have started doing call backs, my outgoing emails/ faxes perday got lesser. GOSH! only 2 emails only. Previously, I was so eager to do call back because my senior was so busy with her own leads and call backs and yet she wanted to help to do mine as

Foong, do you drink? Foong, you come together for clubbing also yea Foong, don’t be so stress lar.. Foong, don’t be so quiet…

Just started to make one a few days ago when I was tired of eating banana in the traditional way. lol * means peel off the skin and makan begitu saja…XD. One thing that make me happy is, my dad was interested with the smoothie that I made. he said, “It tastes NICE!!!” * Before this my dad was afraid to try the smoothie due to his previous experience of mixing red bean beverage with oatmeal together that ended him in toilet for a few times LOL.  Too bad, it fails to attract my mom LOL. From now on, I will be making banana smoothie for both of us once I get back from work and before dinner. so that we can have it for desserts.  Ingredients: banana (amount as you wish) Low fat milk (amount as you wish) instant Oatmeal (Quantity as you wish) Blend the oatmeal and milk first. then only add in bananas and blend them together. Depends on the smoothie’s texture that you want. if you want to make it watery, you can add in more milk or put lesser banana, otherwise you can turn the ot

I have been really truly extremely definitely disappointed with you recently. You really have changed so much. You start to turn into someone who never keeps a promise and yet you feel nothing about it. I have sent you an email last Sunday to discuss about our problem (should be mine only before I sent to you). You told me that you can’t reply immediately because you were having finals and will only do it once your finals ended and told me wait for your message on Thursday. Fine, I will wait for your message on Thursday and let’s settle it once for all. Funny thing is, I don’t receive anything from you on Thursday, not even a sms from you saying that your message will be postponed to a few more days. Nope, I didn’t receive anything from you. Fine, I told myself to wait for tomorrow since you have just finished your finals and need some time to rest and regain your energy. Okay, I will wait the mail to arrive into my inbox on Friday. Dutifully, I checked my inbox again on Friday

One call at 12.30 pm and I got my retainer today. Efficient-nye~ LOL. Previously I was worrying what will happen to my teeth after one week without retainer.

In term of money, everyone turns into slowpoke. * okaylar, me too. It  has been more than 2 weeks that I have requested to withdraw my money from SSPN account and they claimed only 2 weeks working day will do. I have been checking my account frequently for this week and yet I didn’t see any money increment in my banking account.  Argh… this is the thing that always happens when you deal with your country’s “guardian”. hello…..my mom needs to pay for her medical fees, okay. The same thing happened when I was waiting for my PTPTN loan for every semester. They never be punctual. Always the third week of the new semester only then the money was released. And always that very particular period that all of us suffered. I’m wondering what they have been doing. Funny thing is, they are much more effective and punctual when chasing money from us. Mine not sure when the letter will arrive. Initially, I thought of paying off my loan once I have started to work but then Banana reminded me not

After almost 3 years of wearing my “defense system” (* name given by my English for Science Lecturer. En. Mazuki) aka braces, it finally got removed from my teeth. 3 years of enduring the pain, more specifically the ulcers in my mouth that keep on forming whenever my mouth’s inner wall frequently brushed against the metals. Bear in mind, it’s not one ulcer that I’m talking about, they are four ulcers there. Strategically located at  four corners of my inner mouth. I named them as “Ulcers empat bucu / four cornered ulcers” I felt the  pain whenever I open my mouth especially when I laugh too much or too loud ( you tend to open your mouth wide when you laugh loudly, am I right? ); I felt the pain whenever I was eating salty things, You really can’t imagine how the salt irritates your wounds. Leftover food/food crumbs/ food remnants or whatever you want to call it, tend to stick or trapped between those metals. Therefore, you MUST rinse your mouth whenever you have taken  your meal.

Life has been really stressful recently; With average 4- 5 hours of sleep per day; Feeling anxious everyday; Keep on worrying whether I can hit my target before “times up”; Extremely pressurized and envious when another trainee got his first deal in this week ; Tension reached the peak yesterday; Being told that: 1) I looked puzzled some time 2) I can’t do it since I haven’t hit the bull’s eyes till now Tears started to well up around the rim of my eyes when my senior told me about it personally; Yet, can’t let those tears to flow down my cheeks; Must try my best to stifle it no matter what; Crying and sobbing will just make matter worse ; Luckily I have my senior to back me up; Keep on reminding and encouraging me that I CAN do it; Taught me how to portray the image of you-know-what-you-are-doing to those DUPES that claimed this girl can’t do it. Honestly, I was so down yesterday. It really seemed that all the miserable stuffs happened in one shot within that very 5

Another complicated day just passed; well, today was rather terrible, I would say; yea, I know. I’m new in this but still, ergh…I’m just pathetic. Out of sudden, I feel like my English SUX! yea, allow me to use this word. Really, I couldn’t find any better word to signify the  “me” a few hours ago.  I kept on stuck at the same thing. I mean, come on. what so hard about it? Just say it out, man. Why you have to be so nervous? And Mr Brain, stop pumping adrenaline!!! Not at that moment, okay? You’ ve ruined everything. However, I’m very fortunate to have all my colleagues to help me. Really, without them. I just don’t know what to do. Especially my senior. she got back pain and yet she still moving here and there to help me. Yea, I know. if I passed. then it’s good for her too. It’s a win win for both of us. Anyway, I’m just so grateful that she was willing to do so much for me. Keep on encouraging me and make me feel like I’m a HUMAN and definitely not “ Bodoh!” THANK Y

After 2 weeks of job hunting, I finally settle down in this company, JFPS (M) Group. At the moment, I have attended 4 interviews and out of them only this one has changed my life. Yea, the second last interview from JFPS (final – Eli Lily (M) SDN BHD). Previously, I have no clue what is my life goal going to be? What I want to become? What I want to achieve? What is my future career? Frankly speaking, when I was applying for jobs in Jobstreet.com, I only have this mindset. “ I don’t mind what kind of job that I’m going to apply as long as I got fixed monthly income ” “ I don’t want to be jobless once I’m graduated ” “ For as long as I fulfill the company’s requirement and job responsibility, I WILL JUST ACCEPT THE JOB!!!! Whether or not It’s going to be related to my field (Biomedical Science), is not really my concerned. ” To put it in a simple way, I set a very low and flexible target when I was job hunting. Perhaps, I was too freak out of being jobless.* Well, since the