Today...

When your days are awful; You couldn't just fathom why on earth there are so many terrible things happening around you to increase your predicament; to increase your burden; to increase your load; to increase your problem; As if what is happening is not sufficient to make you feel miserable; to make you suffer; to torment you; All you can feel is PRESSURE! PAIN! AGONY! You feel like running away from here; to live in a place where you feel contented, safe, calm and secure; Sometimes you just feel so heavenly with your place that you feel reality is nasty; All this while, you think you can cope with it; you think you can live with it as if they have became part of you. Then again, you are actually running away from it.

Feeling moody recently, especially today; I wonder why? The feeling just come on and off; Am i thinking too much? Suddenly feel that i'm alone in this mess; Feel like screaming and crying till my lung off; Feel like running away from here; I'm scared... Dragging so many people into my world; Feeling guilty and terribly sorry to them;

Not even one "A" for last semester final exam; I remembered i can answer them quite well; What is happening???????????????????? Perhaps i'm over-estimated myself.....

I almost losing it today; Trying to stifle on something that is rush out in a palpable wave; From my face, hands and body; Against middle-of-the-road; Which i wander on a daily basis; That leads to no where.

I was supposed to wake up when my alarm clock rang at 6.45pm. All of a sudden, i felt a pain in the center of my tummy, urging me to go for toilet. haiz.. For the first attempt, nothing come out . Second attempt, again, nothing come out. Finally, there was some luck at the third attempt.

We continue our plant extraction for today. Since everybody knew what they were doing and, which methods suit their plant the best, tasks have became easier and quicker. Around 1 pm, all the plants materials are successfully blended and ground and are prepared for soaking with solvents (hexane, ethyl acetate, ethanol) Initially, we planned to soak all our plant materials then only we will go for lunch. However, things always never go as smooth as we have planned. First, we tried with Ethyl Acetate. Once the solvent are poured, we need to stir the content to make sure they are well-mixed. The stirring seemed hard. For mine, almost h alf of the plant material completely dissolved in the solvent and you can observe 2 layers. Second, we continued with Hexane. For my plant, it does not dissolve in Hexane at all no matter how hard i stirred it. A very obvious 2 layers of solution s can be seen. You can imagine mixing some plasticine with water in a conical flask. This is how my plant looks l

I can say that today is our official day of doing FYP as previously, we were just, washing, cleaning, autoclaving our tools and apparatus and as well as plant investigating. lol The task seems easy, but it is not as simple as it sounds. Honestly, it fully depends on the type of plant that you are using. For instance, my cactus seems the easiest to be processed as it already contains some liquid extract of its own and the cutting part is not hard either. At first, i doubt it because cutting cactus seems tough for me. However, again, as the saying goes, do not judge a book by its cover. lol. The same goes for blending process. A few times of blending already enough to liquefy it. As for Jason's ginger. A little more works have to be done in order to turn it into pulps, such as , cutting it into the smallest pieces as you can, blend it with blender and finally crush it with mortar and pestle. This little guy didn't even go for lunch.lol As for Yan's Neem leaves, the dryin

PHEW!!! After days of plant selection i finally confirmed and bought my plant for FYP. Let me introduce... . Nopalea cochenillifera . (If i'm not mistaken; need to be verified for confirmation XD) Interesting, huh? Let me tell you, the adventure of searching for this plant is tough. The Plant Investigators are facing a real challenge here. Why? we even went far until Ipoh nursery to search for it. We don't even loose the chance of scanning the plant along the high way, hopefully to find it somewhere around there. YES! We did found it in one or two housing area. However, that will only be my last resort if i can't find it in Ipoh nursery or by worse Cameron Highlands. After having our lunch in one of the food stall, we officially started our plant investigation. First, we stopped by at one of the nursery in Ipoh. urgh...too bad i can't recall the name. The boss told us that, he doesn't sell any cactus. Before we left his nursery, we asked him is there any place

Feeling a speck of hunger while reading journals and browsing the internet. I miss my crunchy coconut biscuits which i have finished it in 3 days. urgh.... There is no way i can hang in front of my laptop after 11 pm with growling stomach . Precisely stop at 10.30 pm. Lots of food flashing sub-consciously one by one in my mind right now. most probably already planning for breakfast. =.= Fried hams/hot dogs/ scramble eggs Peanut butter spread Hot chocolate drink

Read carefully, it's definitely not Wang Lee Hom's Chinked- out album. lol I have downloaded two new horror movies (they are old movies actually). again i was about to watch the first part but hesitated because i'm home alone today. It is a bad idea to freak out ALONE after watching a horror movie. My wild imagination can bring me as far as i want. lol. If i did, i don't know how am i going to sleep tonight without having nightmare. i seldom have nightmare normally. So, i have decided to wait till one of my housemate to come back from hometown then only i will watch it. yeah~ viable organism. I need some life form to tell me that i'm in a reality and not in my horror fantasy world. call me scaredy cat if you want. I admit to it. HAHAHAHAHAHA

A few days ago, the Plant Investigators lol went to Tesco to enjoy High-Tea . Yan and Ben bought Oreo drinks and wafers each, Jason got himself a chicken rice and as for me Peanut and Chocolate flavored wafers. The Oreo drink was really tempting lol. I was about to buy it as well but drop the idea finally because i already spent Rm2.50 for my wafers. Not until yesterday, out of sudden, i was thinking about the Oreo drinks. Pathetic lol. So, i plan to have it by tomorrow. The feeling got intensified after my lunch. Terrific =.= . I told myself to buy it after i have taken a nap around 2.15 pm. So, here i am. Cycle to Tesco just for a drink. It was hot and sunny, mind you.Perhaps it was the hot weather that reminds me of Oreo drink. Ok, now blaming the weather. After i went home, i washed my hands and the straw and quickly took a sip. Guess what? It's not what i have expected. It is almost tasteless. i can hardly taste the Oreos. The only thing i can taste is Oreo + Teh Tarik = sli

I was trying to download some korean songs from my usual source: Jenpoo.com. Too bad this website has shut down. Fortunately i have found a cool website browser , where it will list out all the websites that are related to each other. For example, if you key in youtube web address, it will shows other websites that are similar to youtube, which provide flash video broadcast, such as Metacafe, Tudou, Youku and many more!!!! Thanks to it, i managed to find my alternative source for Korean songs. XDXD here is the link: SimilarSiteSearch.com - The Best Place To Find Similar Websites

Seems like my current obsession is mystery or thriller movie lol. Here are two Hong Kong movies that i have just watched. Both are mystery, definitely not horror movies but they are amazing as always. Hong Kong 90's movies rock!!! The Untold Story ~ Sudden Vanish Plo t: The story focuses on a pair of Hong Kong police officers named Sam and Judy (Lai and Yuan) who throw in the towel and resign from the force so that they can go off and start their own private detective agency. Why would they want to branch out on their own? So that they can focus in on the one area where they excel that the normal police force won't go – the paranormal. Sam's wanted to start looking into the weird and mysterious world and his superiors have always reeled him back in when he's tried to travel down that mystical path. While it might sound difficult to get a business like this up and running, thankfully they have a mysterious and very wealthy benefactor (Tao) who stands in the

i have decided to reward myself by watching a chinese movie after a few days of Plant Investigation . lol. The reason i chose this movie was because Wayne Lai was one of the casts in this movie though he was not the main lead. the other reason is, previously i have watched too many comedies and crime investigation movies and series. Therefore, now i'm trying to "gain" new feeling. lol. Besides, the review was appealing too . to me la. XD Plot: This movie takes place in a mall where two young men and other people work. They don't seem to get along very well due to a lack of customers. One night the two young men give an apparently dying businessman a soft drink, which is in actuality an experimental Iraqi biological weapon that turns him into a flesh-eating zombie. Returning to the mall, the man escapes and begins infecting the population, forcing a small group of misfits to band together in order to survive. My feedback: This movie is not bad though there are a

During the FYP discussion, i was dumbfounded when i was told to change my plant. OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! After so many hectic days of doing research for my specific plant; After so many hours and days i have spent to understand those research papers; After so many hours and days i have spent to compare those research papers; After i have handed-in my proposal a few weeks earlier; After i have a VERY CLEAR idea of my plant extraction; i was told to change my plant type because it's common. lol, i think it would be nice if i was being informed earlier. Definitely not until everything is done. Why don't i defend my plant since so much efforts and nourishment ( though haven't bought ) have been poured? well, part of me agreed that, no point doing the same thing since most people have done it before. Amitabha.......

I don't know whether there is something wrong with me or what. Ever since i have returned to Kampar, the weather seems hot here ( i can feel the heat ). Worse still, seems like the breath that i'm exhaling is steaming hot. lol In contrast to Kl, rain seems never fail to pour by any minute. Adui...

My coursemates and I have attended a FYP briefing which lasted for 2 hours (2-4pm) in DDK1. Though throughout the period, the lab officers were only talking about rules and regulations in the lab, it scares the jeepers out of me. I don't know, perhaps the main reason was some of my friends already got started with their project. i know, they are just washing the apparatus or having lab tour. They doing something at least. As for me, urgh.. i have no clue what should i do (a few minutes before entered Ms Teo room). Once, the briefing ended, Ms Teo requested us to meet her in her room. Whoa.. now the "real meeting" finally got started. From my observation, she is kind of ambitious. lol Judging her externally, you might doubt my statement. Again, do not judge a book by its cover. Luckily, she is kind of lenient too. She told us that once we are ready and when the final exam mood totally gone off (mine disappear long time ago, i think XD), then we can start our project.

After days of eating dry foods, finally i have fallen sick. Not much signs and symptoms are present unless, loss appetite (miracle), fever and whole body aches. No flue, no sore throat, no cough haiz....