Challenges! Seriously, how much we know? How much we can feel from it?
When we were writing essay or answering examination questions we never
forget to mention the word, challenges. Why? The word seems so grand and
powerful enough to include into your sentence and make the whole thing
looks so....'cool'? Honestly speaking, when thought about
c-h-a-l-le-n-g-e-s, I shivered, I feel fear, it's really horrible and
yes, it changes you. You know, the feeling is really unbearable and
makes you feel miserable. To survive, you change yourselves, you adapt
to the environment. Yes, it is the survival of the fittest. Tell you
what, eversince I have started to work till now, I still have this kiddy
mindset. I still 'think' that i'm young and let the adults do all the
work for me. I'm totally carefree. Eversince I have started my new
program, my mental did change a bit. I started to really understand what
is the meaning of failure. I finally know how it feels like when
everyone succeed and you are the only one lacking behind. I know how it
feels like when you are being left out. I know how it feels like when
you are desperately in need for support and encouragement. I know how it
feels like when you really thought about quitting. I know how it feels
like when you want to isolate yourselves. I know how it feels like when
the mind-torturing force accumulating and boiling in your body but you
can't let it out. You are yourself timing bomb. I know how it feels like
when self-help books started to replace your comics. I know how it
feels like when YOU ARE ON YOUR OWN. The process of going through all
these so called challenges are really not easy. It's mind-torturing, it
is breaking me apart. On the verge of collapsing, you have to stand up
again by yourselves. You have to choose whether you want to survive or
quit. Urgh~it's ain't easy when the latter is more appealing to you. You
have to remind yourselves do not quit, You must got the courage to face
it and be strong. Incorporating your strength and psychology and
FIGHT.
Rebonding and contact lens
Phew!!...Finally..i got my hair done. i went to salon and get my hair straightened. this is for new year and new look. in other words, " gai bian zi zhi " hahaha. i went to the salon in plaza pudu and it costed me Rm160. hm...to me is okaylar...comparing the price when some of my friends had done it before. i hope, it lasts long, otherwise, my money just flew away for nothing. (touchwood) first, they washed my hair. hey, the feeeling was good!!! i can't remember how long i have been to salon already. all this while, my mom is my private barber. hahaha then, they blew my hair, applying cream (alkaline, if i'm not mistaken), steamed my hair, wash my hair one more time, blew them, applying for more cream, wash again and blew them, then only they started to iron my hair...then, wash again, and iron my hair..and finally trimmed my hair..all these processed took nearly 5 hours to be done. However, the result is good. Way better than my previous hair where they are all d
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