Challenges! Seriously, how much we know? How much we can feel from it?
When we were writing essay or answering examination questions we never
forget to mention the word, challenges. Why? The word seems so grand and
powerful enough to include into your sentence and make the whole thing
looks so....'cool'? Honestly speaking, when thought about
c-h-a-l-le-n-g-e-s, I shivered, I feel fear, it's really horrible and
yes, it changes you. You know, the feeling is really unbearable and
makes you feel miserable. To survive, you change yourselves, you adapt
to the environment. Yes, it is the survival of the fittest. Tell you
what, eversince I have started to work till now, I still have this kiddy
mindset. I still 'think' that i'm young and let the adults do all the
work for me. I'm totally carefree. Eversince I have started my new
program, my mental did change a bit. I started to really understand what
is the meaning of failure. I finally know how it feels like when
everyone succeed and you are the only one lacking behind. I know how it
feels like when you are being left out. I know how it feels like when
you are desperately in need for support and encouragement. I know how it
feels like when you really thought about quitting. I know how it feels
like when you want to isolate yourselves. I know how it feels like when
the mind-torturing force accumulating and boiling in your body but you
can't let it out. You are yourself timing bomb. I know how it feels like
when self-help books started to replace your comics. I know how it
feels like when YOU ARE ON YOUR OWN. The process of going through all
these so called challenges are really not easy. It's mind-torturing, it
is breaking me apart. On the verge of collapsing, you have to stand up
again by yourselves. You have to choose whether you want to survive or
quit. Urgh~it's ain't easy when the latter is more appealing to you. You
have to remind yourselves do not quit, You must got the courage to face
it and be strong. Incorporating your strength and psychology and
FIGHT.
Journey to The Quest of Employment
Once I had my breakfast, I went out to Pudu to take a passport size photos for the sake of my job application. What so special for this time passport photo shot is that, I had make up and wore contact lens =P Well, the process were of little funny where I took 45 minutes to wear my contact lens and spent another 20 minutes to brush up my face. What was more hilarious was, I had decided to walk to Pudu instead of taking LRT. It was a walking distance, to me lar. LOL Ended up, I reached there drenching up my body with sweat and I looked a little bit shiny in my passport photo. T_T What I have found out was, we can actually request for soft copy of our photos. *Or I’m the one who missed this LOL. I did it just for the convenience of uploading my picture to Jobstreets.com since I’m applying my job online and not till next tuesday only that I will go to Kampar to pack all my stuff including my scanner and printer. After I had my lunch, I went to my neighbour’s house (aka. my cousin) to...
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